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Hello all, first time post to the MIP board. I have visited here for a few months and attend the Sat am meetings on line. [Have missed the last 2 weeks and f2f are hard to attend] My work and family schedule keep me busy, throw in living in a rural area and well, here I am. I love that this outlet is here and I can attend whenever I choose to. With all of life's demands this is simply refreshing. I'm seeking a sponsor and it was suggested that I start here. Tough week and aah came back from golfing today, stinking of booze. Yes, after 2 wd seizures in 4 months this year including a week of hospitalization and 30 days in intensive outpatient care. ...still drinking. It only took 6 days for him to relapse....did not seek a program upon return. Now it's back to SSDD. 3C's are stapled to my forehead and read daily. Please message me if you know of an appropriate outlet for me- bit like a classified- Woman Seeking Woman Sponsor through the www. Staying strong for my children...my son's are all I have left. They keep me going.
Actually 2BFree if you don't have yourself you have nothing. I know you understand that cause you sound like you still have some reserves with you yet your post reminds me of when I first reached the doors of Al-Anon for real (a bit of a retread) and was impressed with the fellowship continually getting me to self focus for that reason. "If you don't have you Jerry F...you don't have anything" and so I bought it and accepted it as a rule. Recovery became first...before anything else or I didn't have anything else to hang around for. Good luck on the sponsor...they are gold and miracle makers when you get the right one and get humble (teachable). Keep coming back (((((hugs)))))
I'm in same boat as you 2BFree. I need to find a sponsor too and not sure. After 5 years of sobriety, ah fell really hard. Has been drinking for 2 years again. WD over and over as he would run out of money and then get paid. Looked for, found and had affair. Suspended from job for showing up drunk. Rehab in July. Didn't work the program after. in ICU for 14 days for dt's. Is being moved for phys. oc & speech therapy. I have filed for divorce after 33 years. He won't sign. He is with his sister, who is in total denial and won't talk to me. She posts me his daily progress though. I have 3 grown children (college age) and they have been a rock for me. Funny how they seem to be better at all of this than I am. College???? Anyway....
It's so hard, because I'm trying to detach and sister-in-law keeps pulling me back in with all the info. (And that plays right into my obsession of him that I'm trying to get over...rrrrrggghhh) I get so frustrated. Somedays I feel like I've got a handle on it. I go to a psychologist and divorce care, read, read, read.... and I've found this. But there are days when I'm just blah.
