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mjferg


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I am new here,Just starting my journey.Life became unbearable so i decided to go to therapy and my therapist suggested alanon.I have gone to three meetings and it is good to know I am not alone.I have decided not to take my ex back this time as it is always the same ,there are promises to get help but always a lie and drinking,I guess the last straw was having a big book in one hand and talking about meetings, but sneaking off to drink. And  then being verbally abusive with me when i said something about it,so I basically get punished and blamed for his drinking.That to me was so much ultimate manipulation,I will not trust him again.Also just from therapy and meetings I realize my father was an alcoholic and made my life miserable so do I want to be with someone like him and have the same misery, that makes it easier for me to keep things in perspective.There is a light at the end of this tunnel once I get to the other side and I really want to know what it is like over there,because staying in it is  misery.



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Hi mjferg,
Congratulations, you are at the start of a great journey!
I've been "al-anoning" my way through for about a year now, and I don't think there is an "other side" that we get to but for me it's more like, you start walking on a journey alone, meeting a few people along the way, then you find a group of people to share the walk with and after a while you find you are just enjoying the journey, and the company, and everything there is to learn and see.
I think I'll be growing and learning forever and that's a good feeling, that's what I get from al-anon. My life gets more managable and happy every day. That's what the "other side" is like for me so far.
It'a nice to meet you!





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mjferg


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thank you, managable and happy sounds real good to me because I am tired of crying!

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iwishuheaven


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I find it is an ongoing journey, a very long walk that you cannot stop. I started back again after 8 years away and 4 kids later. I went to my first meeting in 8 years and I realized, you can't quit "al-anoning"
At the meeting this week someone told me that the program works, BUT you have to WORK it!
I saw my mistake then and there. I walked away...hopefully never again.
Good luck!!

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Green Eyes


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You're in the right place. Welcome!

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mjferg


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I appreciate the encouragement, I will say, this is not easy,after years of drinking and being irresponsible I am left with quite a financial mess,but I played a part in the drama and now I will be able to make decisions based on what i need to do to have a better financial situation.

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Welcome to MIP

Happy you can join us. The fellowship is the best and you will never go wrong coming in to visit daily. I started a couple of years ago and boy has my life changed, but like most say it will be a life long learning experience and reminder that sometimes my life can become unmanageable but I now have the tools to manage me and my part in this mess.

So keep coming back because you are not alone



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welcome to MIP, mjferg. You are among wonderful supportive friends here who know your pain. Alcoholism is a terrible disease that affects not only the alcoholic, but also family and friends of the alcoholic. I am so glad you have found Al-Anon. Please continue going to the f2f meetings. The disease looks for someone to blame. It needs someone else to blame. BUT you did not cause it, cannot control it and cannot cure.

You have made your first step. Taking your focus off your a and putting it back where it belongs--on yourself.

One of my favorite Al-Anon slogan's is "Let go and Let God." '

Take care of you and take one day at a time.

It works if you work it.

 

 



-- Edited by cloudyskies on Friday 24th of October 2014 06:35:21 PM

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Debilyn


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I am so impressed with your path to recovery! You are so wise in your choices. I am on the other side and have been for years now. It gets better and better!

Please feel so very, very welcomed to be part of the mip family. It is a safe place to be! debilyn



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el-cee


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Welcome, alanon will help you work through the damage alcoholism does.

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Welcome Mary I am so pleased you have found face to face meetings and are attending.
Please keep coming back here as well. There is hope.

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Aloha Mary and welcome to the board and face to face Al-Anon Family Group meetings.  The first promise Al-Anon made to me came true early on my journey and you will hear it at the closing reading of your face 2 face meetings..."If you keep and open mind....you will find help".  Stick around and keep coming back with that open mind and you will experience miracles never thought possible having lived within the disease of alcoholism.  Mike and the others are right...you cannot quit Al-Anoning.   I did for a short while and got another promise from the meetings...When you stop it gets worse; ours is a progressive disease and fatal if not arrested.

Good to have you join us.   (((((hugs))))) smile



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mjferg


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Thank you all so very much and yes I am struggling with pain, fear and depression,and those feelings have always held me captive, but one day something happened and i read somewhere the phrase "You can't turn a tiger into a kitten", It may sound silly but something clicked in my head and I knew I was done.

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