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I have not posted for a while so I thought I would talk about my meltdown. We moved to the Southern part of our state almost 5 months ago. Weather is gorgeous, clean air, no snow and we love it. I have not been to a F2F meeting in over 6 months either. I guess I thought going to the online meetings, reading, etc., it was enough, but Monday it proved me wrong. I had a major meltdown. It had been brewing for months and months and I just pushed it back and did not deal with it. I checked out F2F meetings here before we even moved, but never did act on them. Monday scared me. I thought to myself I have got to get control of MY emotions and stop letting all of this get to me every single day. My AH drinks still, but not near as bad as he use to. I am not making excuses but just stating what is going on. So on Tuesday night I went to a F2F meeting. There was a big group (about 25 people) and everyone seemed very nice. It is very different than what I am use to but I could feel myself calming down. I am going to continue to go, meet people and hopefully get a sponsor. Even though I have good days and bad this is way too much for me to handle without help. I totally get that....now.
Thanks for listening. Love this site and all of you.
I hear you on this. For me, even though my two qualifiers are no longer in my life, I still find myself needing more than just my readings, an occasional check in with my sponsor, and coming to this board. I started going back to F2F meetings and it's been bittersweet. It's hard to hear the painful sharing from some of the new members- their stories take me back to a place that I don't want to revisit ever again. But at the same time, I'm able to see how far I've come in my own recovery and to realize what an important part that fellowship contributes to maintaining our sanity and serenity, as well as in helping others find their own serenity.