Temple, I am starting a new post in light of what you picked up on my Just thinking thread, you were indeed the only one that picked up on my husband saying he doesn't use our washing machine, in my mind that felt like he was saying it's not my problem! 

So I am on holiday from work this week hence all my posting, my husband new in advance and we planned to go to the coast for a few days, he made no attempt to book anywhere or discuss it, I did mention a place half way and said that would be nice and the next day we could go on to the main destination, he said no there is nothing there and that was that so we haven't gone anywhere, to be honest the weather has been pants but I have all the gear I don't mind rain in the least, so I said are you spending the week at home then with me, he looked at me horrified no he said why would I? I said well I thought you said you had worked up to us going away and we could have some time together so he said, why have you waited until it's raining to take your holidays lol, 

I could go on and on about this, and I am going to tell you what the big boundary he crossed was with me and what I suspect is behind all of this, we had a really busy weekend about two weeks ago, I was working all weekend our daughter came to stay for two days we had to pack so much into that weekend, I cooked a huge family roast as well as one at work the same day, I went for a walk with my husband to investigate a new horse bridge we were both ineterested in seeing and whilst out he said to me will you be wanting sex tonight! I said honestly I am not sure I am soooooooo tired, he said well I will take that as yes and he took a tablet a viagra because he is also diabetic anyways I fell asleep, not intentionally but that was it, sulking cold shouldering me I took it for a few days then I flipped out and I said I can;t help falling alseep, he said you know I can't do it without a tablet, I said well I can't do it without love, it's not something I can plan a head, well I am not soothing his ego, I am done being pressured into things especially that, when I agreed to come back home I said I cannot just walk in as I left, because the reasons I left are still here and  we both need to work on them, so I am trying my best to keep busy this week, I am dreadfully sad he kind of sabotages really all the good things in both our lifes, I am seeing the humour though which is quite new to me really because all of these things I have taken so personally, it does wear a person down though, so when I get up in the morning my brain can switch straight onto the problems and I have to remind myself to switch gear into the solutions.

I got up this morning and first thing I did was press the washing machine button yay it came on jeez a miracle, can I just tell you this, me and my best freind love our cycles we both get really good stuff and we wnet through a faze of trying to find the best light puncture proof tyres, anyways we have the same bikes so we both got some tyers and were excited to see whos wnet fastest, I had so much trouble putting my tyres on because when my bike is upside down and me being dyslexic I get confused I put them on three times, anyways the big day came and we started off on the trail we cycle really fast and then free wheel and have a no braking rule because it waistes our energy, I had concluded I would go furthest because I was lighter, but I didn't lol I went slower, infact my friend said netty you are going backwards, I was gutted and do you know why? because I put them on worng way around lol, I have time on my hands today and my best friend had a serious accident and shattrered her leg falling off a ladder, shes making great progress and she tells me she is almost ready fro trying to ride her little yamaha tricker 250, I have one too and so her aim is to get that poorly leg changing gear and cycling again, shes my healthy lovely non alanon best friend but I swear she wrote courage to change, have a great day all love you lots Katy x