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It has been so long since I posted on here; almost 5 mos. I was & still am a bit sick. I went through a rough time when my mom left for CA in May. But, low & behold she ended up coming back up here for a visit & ended up back in the hospital & committed this time. What a long journey it has been for both of us. Letting go wasn't easy but I did get a chance to get used to her being gone for a month and a half. So, the long story goes: if I can put it in words. I am just grateful that I have meetings & friends. I just wish I could've had a chance to update all of you. I noticed that my mom was acting about the same while she was in CA. My sister wasn't able to take care of her hardly at all. She ended up in hospitals & never actually lived w/ my sister at all. It was a nightmare for my sister, as you probably can guess. Anyhow, my mom decided that she didn't want to do as she was told & wanted to come back up here. Without realizing it, my mom had a plan to come back up here & I thought it was just for a visit. As you can see, I was horrified at what I found when she arrived, not the mom I know & love. I am just happy that she got what she needed up here. She got a not so friendly visit by the police & was detained & later to court & then court-committed by her own doing. She still probably thinks that she is OK. Anyhow, I am in acceptance of where my mom is & what they are doing w/ her. She is in a safe place & is under the best care possible.
So, I have struggled & overcome some obstacles. I am still a work in progress & am hoping I can get even better & healthier.
I was so paranoid & scared for so long but today I am coming out of it one day at a time.
I can't really explain what happened to me but I know God was watching after me. He takes good care of crazy people like me.
I don't mean to put myself down but today I realize that I really am not. I have come a long way & intend to go a lot further.
Be patient w/ me. I don't know when or how I will for sure get on here, but I plan to.
I never gave up on MIP at all. I just needed a break to sort things out.
I love all of you & would not have made it this far w/o Al anon.
Kathleen! I have been wondering what happened to you and I'm glad you're here. I'm sorry that you have been sick. I'm also sorry to hear that your Mom has been through so much and is in a safe place now. I hope that you are safe, too? Many prayers for you and for your family. So good to hear from you and to receive an update on you. (((K)))
Dear Kathleen, I certainly did miss you and am so happy to see you back and sharing the journey. It is good that Mom is in a safe place and that HP has been with you every step of the way . I have experienced months like you have just described and know full well without HP's protection , I would not have been able to survive.
As always I wonder about you when you don't post. I am so sad you have been thru so much!Get to healing and back to letting stuff out here! thank you for coming back!!! hugs
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Great to see you back again, I missed you, but like old friends, we get to simply pick up where we left off and the months just drop away. Sending ((((hugs))))), serenity and peace to ease your recover from the difficult times.