It has been busy is putting it mildly .. I spoke at the Alanon function and had a lovely time.  I can see how far I have come and see how far I have to go.  That's a good thing and I like that it's not done nor will it ever be .. it's just learning something new each day and it's a journey. 

My mom has some kind of eye cancer that is being treated by chemo eye drops .. now .. go figure I never heard of that however it sounds like it's completely under control and I'm so very grateful for the fact she's not having to under go more aggressive treatment. 

The last two weeks pretty much since school has started has been crazy and I do mean just there is no time and when there is I'm just exhausted so sleep has been at the top of the list.  I do need to recharge my battery .. I just haven't figured that one out yet.  We have had illness in the house, kids have missed school, I have missed work, .. lol .. then the round of pink eye hit my daughter.  There went more work and more school .. I literally ran from work, home, school, dr, home, school, home, work .. that was one day .. lol .. I thought good grief that is crazy! 

Some very good news .. I have another court date here is hoping that whatever is going on is resolved on that date.  I am truly hoping to be divorced.  I keep finding out new information without really seeking it out .. my daughter teased me I'm so in the wrong line of work .. she said Mom .. I have never seen people disclose the stuff they do to you and it is freaky to watch because I sit there thinking is this even legal?  Then I think .. it's mom and this is how she thinks and works .. lol .. it's just something to watch.  I'm just hoping this chapter will finally close. 

The other good news the last stupid parking ticket has been paid FINALLY .. so after all the begging, pleading, bargaining, threatening, atty's involved and so on it came down to one text from me basically stating that if the ticket wasn't paid by XYZ date that I would be following up with aggressive legal means.  I never responded to the two texts he sent the first one was flip and the second one was panicked and rationalizing the situation.  I'm not going to bother with this minutia (sp?) .. either pay the bill or don't .. there will be a direct consequence for ignoring the situation.  I have also found out there is a possibility he forged my name to the truck title and IF that happened the crap rolling down hill will stagger the mind.  I will fully pursue the full lengths of the law .. it was completely unnecessary for him to do that and I will absolutely not have my name forged to any document that is tied with his.  The funniest thing at this point is that he thinks I don't know .. and I do.  I look forward to that conversation. 

Shocking as it will be the registration that was suppose to be in his name on the "new" car is not.  This was supposedly taken care of 5 weeks ago and it has not been .. this is exactly why the kids won't get into a vehicle that is not registered in his name.  In the mean time he has just buried himself with the kids which is a shame.  The lack of personal responsibility is his issue to deal with however he's done himself no favors in the kids eyes because he continues to blame me.  Thankfully they are smart enough to know that all he has to do is provide the current information and it wouldn't be an issue, ... as long as I do not know who the car belongs to then there is no way the kids are getting into it.    So nothing changes if nothing changes and nothing has changed.  I heard from someone else that he hasn't paid the general dr I take the kids to see thankfully that was for his stuff and they are happy to see him provided he pay the last bill .. he never called back.  I'm sure he was a little panicked when he realized my daughter saw the dr for her condition and is wanting to know who we went to see. 

The texts he's been sending to the kids have been all kinds of inappropriate so I'm almost hoping he's that stupid and decides to bring up not seeing the kids in court .. he will be shocked and dismayed when that all comes out.  The judge is going to be furious with him .. NOT me .. at least I don't think so because I'm going off of recent past behavior and lack of responsibility.  He gets kudos for taking care of the ticket .. now how about the arrearage?  He just continues to bury himself it's sad to watch him in action.  Not my problem .. not my monkey's not my circus. 

I feel content .. I feel like I'm almost off the circus ride and I feel like I'm ready to start a new chapter of my life that doesn't involve him or court .. let's at least hope so .. we'll see.  I also know he's going to choke on nails when he sees the settlement proposal and is not going to be happy about that .. and I do firmly believe that his atty is so very done with him it's about stupid .. so I'm hoping that his atty will just tell him .. just settle already this is only going to get worse for you.  So fingers are crossed that Oct is the end date. 

Hugs S :)