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Hope was the topic at my meeting this week and it was the first thing I got in alanon, as soon as I heard people say the word alcoholism. Its funny I lived with it for almost 20 years and noone ever said the words. To hear them used openly gave me hope because it was the first move away from the denial that I knew I was living in by that time. Listening to those women and men talk about the impact alcoholism had in their lives was liberating to me. It was like, oh, here is the truth of my life, this is it and these people know it and not only that they are actually talking about it openly, its not a swear word or a word that can never be said after all. I knew I had arrived at my destination or more like the departure lounge because ive being on a journey ever since.
sigh, sometimes I think about my friends who are doing well and never had to think about what we go thru or went thru.
They just live their lives day to day picking out the kind of coffee they want and having the grandkids over.
El Cee sometimes the devistation I feel from the disease, all the pain and hassles it has left behind I feel so tired.
Becuz of A's disease I am constantly struggling to make it financially, to keep my home up, just to keep going. I mean that is ok as I feel very grateful so far I do make it!
Just wonder what it would be like to just cruise for awhile you know?
hugs honey, debilyn
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
Debilyn, I know that weary feeling, it will pass. Cruising sounds good at first glance but for me when its all going smooth I can get a bit complacent and lazy, its the struggle that helps me learn and grow. Your too good for the cruising debilyn, your hp wants you growing.x