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wow I have been handing my will and life over ad really meaning it of late. I do not want to be insane doing things over and over that I know do not work I have learnt this the hard way.
Peace is in Gods will I may not see it today but he can see round corners I really and trusting him. I have been meditating daily and listening to HP's will, I do not like a lot of what I am being guided to do basically keep hands off focus on self. But I am acting on this guidance because I trust my HP.
I have been separated for a month his recovery has stopped and he will face the consequences of this choice. I am trying to make good choices and I am getting positive consequences already. I have detached and I am mostly peaceful when the grief hits I used my recovery tools and the serenity returns.
step three Hp has me in his arms as he has just been waiting for me to reach out .
Allowing yourself to feel and heal and saying no to doing what you've always done because you want something else more is challenging and it can be rewarding.
Tracy you are way ahead of me. I can not seem to hand myself over to
My HP. I have felt him and he is guiding me thru this process of divorce
But my head will not stop spinning. My emotions are all over the place. I am
Feeling the feelings but i now have no serenity which i had a short time ago.
It is all just one big process, i cant wait for the pain and the healing to begin.
It will when the divorce is final and i go no contact.
I wish that I always had serenity and peace however that is not reality. Separation and divorce are one of the top three stressors in life and to all those who take that step, you are strong. I have been through one divorce years ago, of course from an addict, and it was excruciatingly painful. However, I had no program. I am grateful now to have my F2F meeting, my online family, and my wonderful sponsor. If I leave my A down the road, I know I will do better than the last time. We are all walking the same path-survival from the effects of addiction. I have hope! Lyne
I went through a divorce before but I was left by my ex husband so didn't have to make the decision, juts feel the pain.
Now, I am making the decision to divorce my current husband and I realise how difficult decision it is.
I will have numerous problems ahead but I really can't remain married. I need a change.
I too need to hand myself over to HP. I am still a little afraid but soon I will have no choice.
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Thanks for tbis, im trying to do this myself at the moment. Im ok in the morning but as the day goes on I forget and its my will all the way. Its a tricky one to make a habit, I suppose its keeping in your mind all day for a while. Ive been good at it before and I know how well it works. Thanks for the reminder, nice timing for me.x
Thanks so much for sharing about your progress, Tracy. Some wonderful reminders how using the tools of detachment and the Serenity Prayer can really help each day. Nice to hear the rewards you're experiencing from working the program. Prayers for you and him at this difficult time. TT
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