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But as for me agin I didn't care to look at his cell ph. Last nite he was so out asleep that I could've got I to all his stuff he would've never knew but I chose not too instead I did what was best for me ,wow first I heard myself even say me for a change but I
eft and went over to a freinds house ,of course abf is always in my conversation with her but she is soo patient with me I know I burn her ears off ,but I'm trying to do better.everytime a worry comes into my mind I say hello to it and tell it to now leave my mind,lol it worked,lol thanks to whoever told me that.i live in a mystery suspense of not knowing what's gonna happen next with my abf,that's killing me ,theres a nice man that moved in the house beside me that's widowed we are the same age and our b.days are the same ,I'd like to get to know him better but I'm feeling stuck here,and I just don't think a man of that caliber as him would even give me the opertunity,he is 23yrs retired military,and works with the law.so but he talks to me somewhat. I do need so much to work on me before I even consider another relationship,I'm so tired and sick and tired,I'm decide I'm not and will not anymore be checking up on my abf,I don't care what he does or she does she can have him if she wants him ,she can take care of him he is all broken down.
Good for you! That is a great attitude. I knew you could do it. Soon I am going to hear you say, I don't deserve this! I can do better!! YES there is a life out there for you if you get him out of there...I'm going to wash that man outa my hair! lol
woohoo a man with a brain to talk to, how nice!!
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"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
Oh things are Looking Up - wonderful, wonderful, wonderful post. So good to hear you thinking of yourself and your own future. I think it is up to your neighbour to decide who he finds loveable or not. It sounds as if you are projecting your own self esteem issues onto him, and that isn't really fair. AH does it to me all the time and heaven knows I can do it too!!
I'm so pleased that those negative thoughts are slinking away, such good news.
I remember standing where you are and just beginning to think 'I can be my own best friend, I wonder what that will feel like?' I remember feeling a little bubble of excitement in my tummy as I thought about my next best steps from there. Nothing drastic, but, frankly, luxuriating in candle lit bubble baths was just what I needed Thank you so much for reminding me of that lovely feeling. I'm smiling for you as I type this.