The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I had a rough weekend dealing with alcohol abuse and my loved ones. But out of the drama and heartache I learned one thing. That I must focus on me because I am the only one who can pull myself out of this situation. I will keep coming to Alanon and focus time on myself to get better. I realized that I rely on the wrong people for support - I've tried to rely on people that don't understand the disease of alcoholism. I also learned that people may be angry with me when I try to make good decisions for myself because they think they know better for me. I realized that my grown children want me to stay with my AH to take care of him, because they love him and don't want to see him sick. I also realized that it's my life to live and not anyone else's. I know this is going to be a process and may be hard at times - but as the saying goes "Progress - not Perfection". I learned that having an emotional melt down does not help though sometimes it's hard to hold back the tears. It was a hard lesson to learn but one I needed to.
You are right on (((((Nancy)))))...first realizations and truths like you have received prove that your perception is clear, your mind is open and your willingness to apply courage to change the things you can is working. Good for you...this is what I went thru when I first found the program also. Good changes coming your want. In support.
When I had these realizations I knew my life would be different. The first step is taking hold, let it continue to grow. We are here.
One more thing I want to address and this is moving into step 2 and 3. You will do this with the partnership of your HP, who will continue to guide you in the right direction with ongoing surrender.
-- Edited by PP on Tuesday 29th of July 2014 06:15:56 AM
You really need to change your name. You are well and truly on your way. Keep going it's an amazing journey. It's such a joy to read progress. Love it.x
