The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I'm still sitting here alone not knowing where my a is at he won't answer his ph.half the time lots of excuses,but that's ok cause I still have me and my peace of mind knowing that my hp is watching over me and my roof over head and food and everything g else here all belongs to me that I'm grateful for,and I love coming to this board and share ing helps keep my mind busy and not dwelling so much,I love him and I do believe the only reason I'm still with him is out of fear,fear of being alone all alone fear that I will lose him for good,or I'll go into. a melt down.scary.
It's so hard isn't it when we love someone who is so sick. I can tell you in time, if you keep busy, do things you enjoy, it will get easier to let go and not give him a thought. just taking things as they come.
I like getting lost in books. Or a good movie, or just go sit somewhere and watch animals and or people.
I feel serenity all the time, even when things are hard. Serenity for me turned out to be my strong foundation. NO matter what I have roots down in deep of assurance, confidence, love,hope, faith. humility.
I depend on my HP more than anything, I only get lonely for people who have passed.
Hope you find a way to go easy on yourself. find that place you build yourself, to go and feel everything will be ok no matter what. hugs!
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."