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I have spent a hour here thinking should I post or not. OK I'm posting
I'm in a rut. I'm scared, worried and tired of my life. The bad part is I won't do anything about it. I work many hours then when I do get home I just lay down and go to sleep. All weekend all I did was lay on the bed and watch TV, sleep and cry some.
I thought maybe posting would give me a boost to get off my butt and do something.....ANYTHING different.
Thanks for listening ( reading ) to my complaint about ME.
-- Edited by Cathyinaz on Monday 14th of July 2014 10:20:05 AM
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Are you depressed, Cathy? It sounds to me as if you are. Please start making your assets and gratitude lists daily if you aren't already doing that and force yourself to do one thing fun each day if necessary. Talking over your day with your HP and listening for HP's response to you by writing it out in letter form Dear HP: Today I am feeling so down, I don't even want to get out of bed, what do you suggest? And then writing what you sense is your HP's response to you and doing it could be a spirit lifter for you. If you don't want to write it out, then you could mentally just say what is true for you today and wait for your HP's guidance to you in whatever way that comes.
-- Edited by grateful2be on Monday 14th of July 2014 10:22:56 AM
HI Catherine it is easy to fall into a rut, especially when you're working so hard and things are changing so drastically at work. Maybe resting on the weekend is the most important action you can take for your health. Crying and feeling upset issomething Al-Anon meetings and the steps can help you work out. I would seriously consider increasing my meetings, reworking the fourth through the 11th step and make asset and gratitude lists daily.
It is a process but I do believe you'll feel the benefit shortly. We are as sick as your secrets so I'm glad that you shared
Agreeing with Betty, Cathy. I always go back to the steps and start trying to connect with people in the program at meetings or via phone calls. Coming here does wonders for me, as well, but hearing a friendly voice over the phone sometimes soothes my soul and calms my spirit. I'm sorry that you are struggling. If I didn't have my son around all the time, I could see how I would fall into a depression very easily if I didn't stay busy and stay steady with program. HUGS!
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Never grow a wishbone where your backbone ought to be!
I had a spell like that recently too Cathy. It was dreadful and, I felt like I couldn't climb out of it. I found pushing myself gently to do al-anon exercises and some "nice" physical exercises like walking the dog, tidying up my home etc helped bring me out of it, one day at a time, as well as just repeating my favorite slogans in my head whenever my thoughts turned downwards. I'm feeling quite energised and happy again now although everything seemed utterly hopeless a few weeks ago.
Also, this might not work for everyone but I've been taking Q10 supplements- 150mg twice a day- for me they are a real magic bullet when I'm feeling tired and miserable.
Hugs anyway, hope you feel better soon.
(((Cathy)))
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
((((Hugs))))) Cathy, I'm so pleased that you posted
I had a bout of that a little while ago so I put the best linen that I could lay my hands on on the bed. I really like Grateful's suggestions, I'll be trying that out.
Keep posting Cathy, we love you.
Thank you all for the support. Sometimes you just need some hugs. My health is good except for the lungs. My stress test came back good. The heart could of went forever but the lungs gave out. They put me on some new meds in hopes to help me breath better. I think this hot weather makes us all here in AZ a little crazy. It's like people in the east when you can't get out in winter because it's just too cold.
((( hugs )))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
KKKKKKK here are the ((((HUGS)))) Big ones some more ((((HUGS)))) for later even... I love a rut every once and a while cause as a multi-tasker I can wear my butt clean off and deplete my energy and mess up my emotions and mind and find myself in a mess trying to clean up a mess. In a rut I go down good and I come out okay and often better. Yeppers every so often something will key up the tears and there are absolutely nothing illegal or wrong about poor meees and tears at time. I don't even want rescues from Al-Anon friends or sponsors...Just give me my blankee and a nice rut. ((((Cathy)))) Thanks for the share.
