The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Just for today... I am going to listen to my body and myself. I am going to listen for the times I am enabling. I am going to think before I speak or agree to something. I am not going to be the superachiever at work. But work well to the best of my abilities and not take on anyone else's projects and admit to myself that I am only person and can't take on the world by myself. Sometimes I come home so stressed because I have so many projects because I can't so no that I can't enjoy my evenings. So for today and I am going to take care of myself by listening to myself and consult with my Higher Power...... That's my goal for today.
Now, that is something that makes me happy to read, slowlearner!!!!!! Noticing the wisdom of changing what you can and doing it! You've been listening to your HP, it appears to me! Good for you.
Well I worked my plan and it was amazing how many times I caught myself I doing three things at one time, I had to take a step back and realize I couldn't do that. I also realized that I couldn't control everything that happened, and that maybe somebody's bad mood wasn't my fault. My evening went pretty well it was just me and my daughter. And we had a good evening until.....my husband came home drunk from his golf night in a very black mood. Then we just retreated to our bedrooms and tried to avoid him. I have horses and I love them and my husband always tried to control how much time I spend with them. I'll make a long story short I just bought a used trailer and that was a battle to get that. He believes that it should be kept outside and not in his shed (which has tons of room but since its mine it shouldn't be there). He makes it so difficult for me to enjoy anything. I kept telling myself that it's his problem and not to get upset about it but it's hard.
But I'm making myself another goal for today....the same one as yesterday to take care of myself and be mindful of how much stress I put on myself. I did not cause it and I can't control. I forgot the third C lol. But that one too!
Thanks for all the words of encouragement it truly helped and was the bright spot of my day.
GREAT WORK !!! Keep on keeping on one moment at a time. Soon you will find , as I did, that the love, serenity, courage and wisdom of the program will grow in you one day at a time.