The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
It's been 3 years since I separated from my AH and a little over a year since his passing. I still think about him every day, but I'm moving forward. I've made new friends whom I never would have met if not for the way my life has turned out. I've recreated my life, and rediscovered my faith in my HP, whom I call God. The small apartment that I moved into three years ago is now home and not just a "landing place." I'm getting better with being alone, although I still miss being able to share my thoughts and hopes with my AH before he got so deep in his disease. I'm still going to my meetings every week, and am now a sponsor to a new member. And I offer to lead a meeting now and then so that I can give service as a thanks for all I've received from the program.
I still am working on trusting others and letting go and letting God. I'm a work in progress, but I've made so much progress. I probably sound like a broken record, but I really was saved by joining Al-Anon, getting a sponsor, reading Al-Anon literature, reading Toby Rice Drew's books and joining this board.
I'm a bit introspective tonight because I shared my journey with a group of women today and they told me that they were amazed by my story and how I had survived. I told them, "It's not amazing, it's just miracle in progress."
Thanks for letting me share.
-- Edited by Green Eyes on Sunday 15th of June 2014 02:10:36 AM
-- Edited by Green Eyes on Sunday 15th of June 2014 02:11:05 AM
Thanks for sharing, such a positive and powerful message. It does get better, its in the closing, no problem is too great it cant be lessened. You have faced a fear that many have and you have gotten stronger, thank you.x
Green Eyes, I have watched you in your shares for awhile now. I am so happy to see that you are continuing to move through the past and finding yourself at home in your new apartment and in your new life. I can remember some of the most painful days you have experienced and your willingness to share those days with us. You've put "flesh on the bones" of the truth that things do get better and we get happier, too. (((GE))) You are indeed an MIP.
