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I feel very disoriented in my thoughts but will take a few steps back and pray for clarity. Funny how you stumble on lies sometimes, in this case a five month lie of omission. My grandmother has this saying "an ugly thing will show its head." And all her wisdom of ninety years is right. The only thing I will add is HP shines a spotlight on an ugly lie when it's time. For which I am grateful. I guess I am not crazy after all. Thanks for being here. I plan on praying to HP for direction, and being very still. God is so good all the time, and as my wise wonderful grandmother says, "God provides." Sorry for this post being very disjointed yet somehow I feel like my MIP family understands. I am so calm it's surreal, I should be going into orbit or the old me would be in orbit. God is so good to me I really feel like this is Him literally putting a billboard right in front of my house, mm it's okay you are not crazy. How can I not be grateful for the truth? The truth is such a blessing.
Yes, yes, God is good. My sponsor always reminds me that 'more will be revealed'. So, for me, I like to trust God to provide those answers and to let Him expose the lies in HP's timing, not mine. Thank you for sharing!!
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Thank you for sharing. The truth will always come out eventually. You weren't ever crazy. When stuff doesn't make sense, it's because it doesn't make sense!! There was always a piece of the puzzle missing until the truth came out. Way to work the program!
MM!: So glad to see you here again. I loved hearing what your Grandma taught you. I can feel your serenity oozing through your words on this page. Blessings, sister.
-- Edited by grateful2be on Friday 6th of June 2014 09:04:37 AM
I love the Truth too. I think we can live so long in the darkness of denial that when we step out into the light its like being woken up from a deep sleep. I want to stay in the Truth now and the lies dont even matter. Ive got to the stage where I expect lies from certain people in my life so I kind of treat what they say with a pinch of salt. The good thing for me is that I can see its this horrible disease so its not that the lie is supposed to be hurtful really, its part of the insanity and part of the fear alcoholism instills in people so how can I take a hurt when I know and accept this. great post, I enjoy reading posts where it comes from your higher power.x
Your post hit home with me tonight. At first, I was mad at my HP because I would have to deal with the lie that has become a truth. I am sorry that my reaction to my HP more than having a reaction what was done to me which was horrible. Alnon gives me such a serenity that I don't have to go in that direction. I really had no expectations except not to see the truth. They are so good at deception I feel like I am living with Satan.
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I loved this post mm...It reminds me of the many lessons on detachment I was taught in the program and yes for me that was gifting from HP. I remember when I got the invitation to to get back into the insanity and then just waved it off calmly...it felt alien to me and very very good. "Free at last...free at last...thank God I'm free at last!!
The saying that has really come into full force for me is God will do what I cannot do for myself and sometimes that means showing me the truth in a very stunning way. It IS just as you describe.
I'm navigating the waters in terms of trying to figure out what to do next, knowing that God didn't bring me this far to drop me on my butt.
Hugs and thanks for sharing :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
