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My morning started rough. I get a call from my sons daughters mom. I chose to not answer. This just tells me that my son has not been over there to see his daughter. I have not heard from my son for a week and have not seen him going on 4 weeks. I have to have to get my energy an my strenghth for what ever comes my way. I know I have surrender my son to my higher power and I know my higher power will provide me all that I pray for. I started Couseling and my first session was good. I talked about my son and how his addiction has tremendously effects mine. I have absolutely no control of him or his choices. I need to really take care of me.. I pray my son gets through what he needs to get through ALIVE. !! I grieve for my son that has been taken from me for now, but he will forever be my beautiful boy. I have faith he will find his way back. I have decided to fight for my grandparent rights. I and my daughter should not be punished for my sons choices nor should we suffer his consequences.. I will for ever love him. I am just really hurting. To not know the unknown really hurts. But I will do what I must to for me to be good to anybody.. Many prayers needed for myself , my daughter and my son. I know I am not alone but there are moments I feel alone. God bless .
My your Higher Power hold you in the palm of their hand and comfort you in this agony. He helps me to remember that we each have our own higher power, you do , your son does, your daughter in law does. We are all on our own journey of discovery.
You are most certainly not alone, I support you, as well as this whole MIP family. We understand implicitly. I understand how easy it is to be mournful and to cut myself off from things. Sometimes I am able to get myself out of my funk and sometimes I just need to sit in it for a while and mourn until I get it all out. That's okay too.
Gaby I know the pain you feel except there are no children involved, so I know that is much more difficult. I am thinking of you and you are not alone. The hardest thing is to try and go on for ourselves and not to think about them 24/7. My counselor pointed out to me that I am thinking of my son 95% of the time. I am trying to focus on other issues that interest me. It is so hard and I keep fighting not to sink into that black hole. Pam
-- Edited by Pamela1954 on Sunday 25th of May 2014 11:10:18 AM
