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Am doing my best to keep up here! (c: If you need me please pm.
I am healing from knee surgery, also still anorexic and nauseated from the blood clot therapy. ugh. So it can be hard to be on the computer.
Then horribly my tiny four pound handful of love and friskiness died. He was Cuddy my little tiny chi/havenese who was the light of my life. Only a bit of a year plus. It was agony for days as I thought I made a mistake in my decision to put him down. But my dear doctor told me I did the right thing, after I told him the symptoms.
I was so sick and was afraid I was not thinking straight. Guilt is a horrible horrible emotions. Don't do it!!! I rarely ever feel it.I am so wanting people not to feel guilt. so dibilatating!
Still cannot find the xah. sigh. Going to try to send a letter now to the old lady he was living with.
Anyway always reading your posts. You all are amazing!
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"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
I'm so so sorry about your furry kid. I know how much you love them all and just to lose one of them is heartbreaking. I just think there is a place they all go. and have a wonderful life living in peace and harmony.
I'm glad your knee is healing and pray you will be back to normal soon. Just be careful until it's fully healed.
We love you Deb so take care of you ((( hugs )))
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Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Please take care. Sending lots of positive thoughts for healing. Loss of a pet is so awful. I'm sorry you're heart is hurting. Hope the vet's words offered some assurance and helps with the guilt. (((((hugs)))) TT
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TT it was actually my own doctor who helped me. He is a friend as well as my doc. He came to me when he had to put his to sleep too. He is amazing.
thank you you guys. I needed that. has all been so difficult. giving myself two injections a day into my tummy was no fun. Plus i cannot see to get rid of this dang constant nausea!
barely eat, I love to eat! just feel worse when i do.
anyway I am going to fill this horrible space and have a tiny dog picked out from this amazing rescue. They go to Ca to get little dogs and pit bulls who are on death row, bring them here, rehab and place!
I am sooo glad to give one a home and have him climb into the crook of my arm. Never had a tiny one before. they are so different. they sorta wrap around you like a cat. again it is bitter sweet as I was so in love with Cuddy.
still crying, ugh. I miss Betty! Ireland how cool.
((((D)))) I'm so sorry for losing your Cuddy. I miss my little Chi babies all the time, they have a way of just working into your heart:) it's wonderful how you have given so much of yourself in giving your babies a loving home.
raven don't you just know the creator has a sense of humor by those funny orchids??
lol Yes my cuddy was precious to me. You must know how close we get to the tiny ones. I didn't know, always having giants down to maybe 15 pounders. Its like they sheild your heart.
I miss my little one so much, its hard. Loss is hard on all of us. He was a gift.I decided to mellow out and not adopt another one at this time. I love the rescue I am working with to find one. But I am just not ready I guess. I relaxed when I made the decision.
I have 6 dogs, Great Pyr Sauveur is laying right in front of me. Basset next to me, Poodle next to me, Pom behind me and above on recliner and Shi tzu under my feet. My Newfy x has always been independant and stubbor.We love each other but i give her, her space. its almost like she may have some wolf inthere somewhere.
So I am allowing my kids to help me heal.
thank you for the white board message!!!
Am working hard to get well. dentist is next, then if that does not help, colonoscopy....great fun! geez
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."