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I have my last final today and I will go spend time with her tomorrow. She seems to be fading fast and can barely stay awake when I call to check on her. They never had kids and her husband is so sweet and staying right by her side. I have so much I want to say to this wonderful Spirit, I just can't imagine my life without her. How do you let go of the one person that is always their for you, to support you through everything and knows the worst about you and loves you anyway! She has helped me to build myself up to a confident woman that can face her dreams and conquer them, from a sad lost girl that didn't know who she was or what she even wanted out of life. I was such a wreck when I got to that first meeting and I met her right away and she took me under her wing and helped me to clean out the shame and guilt within. I am so much better for knowing her and am so appreciative to God for her. I know we all have our time together and it is not to be forever here on earth and I can accept that, but this will be a tough one for me. Being in hospice care I have been with many great Spirits to the end and this one person is one of the amazing ones that touched my life in extraordinary ways. So we near the end and I know it is okay, just feeling emotional of course about it. I hope each and everyone of you a beautiful person like this in your life! Sending you all love and support on your journey's!



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Hugs BF, Sending love and support to your way. I'm so glad you get a little more time with her and her husband. Hugs.

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Good luck with your finals. Im sorry your sponsor is fading, so sad. I think you must have given her as much as she has given you, maybe more.x

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Prayers for your sponsor. In the grand scheme of things maybe one of her "last missions" was to see you to this point (even though you did the work not her).

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Good morning Breaking Free,

I'm so very sorry to hear the sad news about your sponsor. The words that you posted are a perfect tribute to this wonderful person and I know that if you spoke these words to her it would truly touch her spirit.

Good luck on the exam



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(((Bf)))



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(((BF))) Perhaps being with her now is an honor and a privilege for you and a comfort for her, too? Perhaps you became the daughter she never had? I, too, had a mentor who died after developing myasthenia gravis. So much of what she said and taught me is still with me today and she died in the late 80s. When I miss her or don't know what to do she appears in my memory, tells me a story or offers me a way of seeing things and I know what I need to do after "our visit." Perhaps your sponsor will shadow you, too, for as long as you need her even after her mortal body is gone? Lots of prayers for her, her husband and for you. Even as she dies she is modeling for you the way to let go and let God. You've had a very good sponsor who will help you sponsor others, too. What a blessing you've received, BF.

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Aloha Breaking...There is a belief in my culture where we know that the spirits of those who pass on before us remain.  "Na Aumakua", The spirit lives exist and I can call on them always.  My formers sponsors who have passed are "Aumakua" and they continue to exist and support my life in recovery.  "God don't make junk" was an early Al-Anon philosophy, HP's good stuff last forever. 

You now get to sponsor her while expressing gratitude for her...surely this cannot be easy for her and her husband too.

I will send prayers...((((hugs)))) smile



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I just came from a f2f meeting where one of the topics was the importance of sponsorship. My first sponsor in the other fellowship has been gone over a decade. To him I owe a debt of gratitude and although I don't always mention his name, I speak about him a lot. I would have to agree with everyone else, just from reading your posts, that you have given her as much if not more than she has given you. sponsorship works best when it works both ways. I remember one of the last things he said to me. "Thank you for the meaning you have given to my life." And all that time I thought he was the one doing the giving. Well, I will include you and your sponsor in my prayers.

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So sorry to hear this. I have only been in al-anon for a year and I love my sponsor like a mom! She recently had a hip replacement and it made me very nervous. She was in a rehab facility for a week. But she is doing well now. I cannot imagine my life without her. How long has she been your sponsor?

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My sponsor isn't up for visitors right now, she said they wear her out. So I will send her a card today letting her know what she means to me. She has sponsored me for 3.5 years, basically my entire time in al-anon. Thanks for the love and understanding MIP family. Sending you all love and support on you journey's!

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How wonderful that you have the grace and serenity to let her go.

I certainly have not had that.  My biological family passed many years ago.  Their deaths were accompanied by grief, anger and more resentment from me.  In fact only today I was resenting that a dear friend of mine got a large inheritance and I didn't (In fact I did not get anything). 

What a gift it is to be able to let go....I certainly do not have that much.   When I have any kind of a relationship I latch on and letting go is like being prized apart.

I am impressed with your dignity, acceptance and most of all gratitude.

My eternal issue in every relationship is not having enough.

Maresie.



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ohhh so so sorry to hear this....can't imagine being w/out my sponsor, but i know nothing last forever....her health is not so great, so i am learning to be less dependent on her and more dependent on me, praacticing what i learned, and working w/other recovery mates......we still dont' know what this neurological thing going on in her head is, i love her dearly...but as i said...life is temporary....i am grateful for her but I am taxing her less and less w/my program stuff b/c until we know, is it a pinch nerve or is it something real bad......i am gonna be by her side no matter what it is......



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I'm sorry to hear that a wonderful sponsor who has touched your life in such a positive way is nearing the end of her journey on earth.  Her job is done here. Your expression of heartfelt gratitude is touching and a loving testimony to one of the most important relationships we'll ever have as program people; the one between sponsor and sponsee.  Although you'll miss her, what she gave you, you can continue building on and pay forward in all your affairs.  (((((hugs)))))   TT



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