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here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My mind was quieter today and I was feeling more accepting of the situation in general. I mean what am I going to do, battle the windmills in my brain? Then the A just went and made things so much easier today. He had started ramping up his cycling again and it looks like he burned his last bridge with the little store where he does odd jobs to keep his habits alive. The boss of this store and another where the A has worked attempted to give him a steady job and more hours, but when he came by this morning he found the A incoherent. So no more job for the A, and probably even no more odd jobs for beer or cigarettes. I decided that I'm not going to try to keep my jeep but rather sign it over to the A and have no more to do with it. I will have lost some money but I'm gaining knowledge and serenity. On a good note, my son may have a job at these same stores which will be much closer to home and possibly more hours for him than his current job. I'm going to say my prayers for strength and guidance from HP for tomorrow, when I'll be dealing with the A.
I would always say to myself....when will it ever stop. Well it didn't for my son. He would always tell me he can't find a job because of his DUI conviction. Well he had 5 jobs in 5 years that didn't last long because he either quit or was fired because of drinking. I think it pretty much the same with most A's when the addiction progresses. But remember that the A can always seek help into recovery and rebuild the bridges....but that is their choice.
Take care of you and let go let God
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
