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Just had knee surgery. Its been hurting a year or more.
Then the darn DVT started up again. (blood clots blocking veins) so that means meds injections done by me and oral meds. its NO stress. I say no even more now.
am ok no energy or very little. do one thing at a time. allow me to do some work outside for just a little while.
Ok I gotta find ex AH. Ineed to know if he is even alive. It is not easy. I keep putting it off. I need to know for life insurance. Just asking for some prayers for strength.
Its been hard being alone in this healing etc. as I have to drive to appointments get med, they all screw things up soI have to pay attention. ugh.
My dear son is working at the beach remodeling houses, decks and stuff. lives in a fifth wheel, has his dog with him, he goes fishing. is meeing his neighbors and their dogs! he is just like me, but he is not here to help me.
I miss him so much I could barf...well the med makes me feel thatway...(c:
My animals are fine. I feel saddened sometimes wishing my mate was here to be with me. I want to take care of a mate too. but am doing better at accepting this the way it is. I still cannot look at pics of my mother, gpas and gmas etc as it is hard to keep the tears away right now.
I want mothers potatoe soup....(c: and grama and grampa coming to see me. I grew up to need that love to heal.
augie my big pig just knocked me over just brushing by me! lol I fell onto his queen mattress he has on the deck thank goodness...He does not know his size. He is about as long as the queen and about as wide with his legs to half the queen. not fat, all muscle.
glory is grooming me as I groom her. lol
anyway I am sorry I am not responding much. I read. My fingers only have so much stamina and energy. One person sent me a nice card and some moolah for me, just for me.. new nightgown or t posts....hmmmm (c:
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
((((Deb))))...It goes like that sometimes and when it does I'm so grateful for the tool of acceptance...self love. When I use acceptance most of the negative stuff subsides and lets the pressure off and when the pressure is gone I can feel HP next to me doing it with me. God is...and so is life on life's terms. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change..."
I'm so sorry you are sad right now but I'm happy and grateful that you are able to get the help you needed and got the surgery. Take good care of yourself and you will up and about again in no time.
You will be in my prayers that HP will give you what you need and give you the strength to get done whats needed to be done.
((( hugs )))
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Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Debilyn! I had no idea you needed knee surgery. Thank you for this post. Sending lots of prayers for healing, good support and physical help if you need it, gratitude that you and the animals are together, and hope that this, too, will pass (soon). (((D))) But high hugs to avoid the knee!!!!
Don't worry about not responding these days, sometimes you get to give and other. times yoU get to take. Sorry to hear you are having a hard time of it, I know the love of animals is great and selfless but can't take the place of humans.
Take care of yourself the best you can, sending prayers your way!!