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A new difficulty has arisen. I have been waiting on it and its here. My son was at court to testify against the man who assaulted him last year. So, ive been supporting him. Hes been up to high dough, really anxious and has been kept waiting for 2 days to testify. Today he did and he was so relieved. That, all of it, I am powerless and im so grateful for that knowledge. I cant control any of the people involved, the justice system, none of it. The outcome has not been revealled yet but hallelujah, im powerless. This gorgeous step has allowed me to still live my life these past few days of high intensity and drama. I was also anxious but I prayed each day and asked my hp for things to be the way they should that would be good for everyone involved. I said to my son, everyone gets what they need, and thats my higher power. I have felt the presence, the readings, the people who have came into my path, everything was calm and non eventful even in this setting.
There may be more still to come, the verdict and sentencing or release of the person, my son with all the isms, im feeling lots of compassion right now because thats a painful way to think. Another example or evidence for me of how this program has helped me, I have copoed with this, not perfectly because I did get caught up in all the talk of the case and the emotions but I didnt fall into the pit. I had some trust that I was okay and whatever will happen is going to happen and I am powerless. Thanks for reading.x
P.s. it seems to be in difficult times my awareness of my program grows and its helping me with the thought of future difficulties, maybe this is what faith is.x
-- Edited by el-cee on Wednesday 30th of April 2014 04:15:56 PM
Oh, el cee! I am so happy for you in that you stayed in program and made it through the past few days in relative calm even though your son couldn't do that now.
Happy for you el-cee your working your program and now the rewards of peace and no pit falls...
((( hugs )))
PS: I have one tomorrow. I'm going to go see my son and I get all heart broken when I see him on that video screen. I heard from his father he is very depressed and teary eyed so it's not going to be easy to talk to him but I will be OK. I will pray to HP to give me the strength to just give him support and love that someday God willing this will all end.
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I hear in you post that you KNOW you will be ok no matter what......you have moved beyond the words and the hopes of recovery to rolling around in it, playing in it....so cool, huh?
El-cee - you are a warm and shining light. Thank you for sharing and showing us alternative ways of seeing, and I love Paula's idea of you playing as well
