many of you have reached out to me so i need to reach back. you are an AMAZING grouo of of friends, yes friends. my non cyber friends are limited and judging. . . after almost walking out 8 days ago, i am still home. i am taking a slight break from therapy as i need a break from ME. LOL.i havent pushed marr cnslg as it seems like one more stress. i have a dear friend i havent from in months despite reaching out to her . . . shes in a similar siutation so at this point im trying to let go and put it in His hands. my ah has really been trying. no break throughs just trying. a little calm after the storm. i know its proabably temporary but at least im breathing and hes trying. things wirh extended family bit so great . they have little use for my husb and he for them.exposure on their pts is limuted. urs sad but easier that way prayers though. my dad was dx with prostae cancer and has removal surgery monday. my husb wont much be involved as he disengages from myfamily, so im on my own to process the aging of my mom and dad . im 42 they are in mid to late sixities and healthy with qualifiers. . . good news though. . i ve been working the same place taking on wayyy too much for the past 15yrs. its getting more toxic each day. just this week TWI jobs have presented themselves that i would love considering. maybe THIS is God opening some windows. thank you all . . i will stay in touch. ((())) btw, my ability to acces pm's is still limited unless i am on my actual laptop which is at work. please know i read them . . thank you, but cant always reply from my tablet despite using the full site option. .