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Hi all...reaching out for all the support I can get right now, I have been a member of al anon for years but have not been going to meetings for the last 5 years or so. In this time I have gained a new alcoholic/addict in my life, my son, I now live with 2 alcoholics my husband and my son. My son is 20 and just got out of a 30 day treatment program, my husband still drinks.
I am having an extremely hard time with the disease once again...all the old fears are back in full force! I was able for a time to detach from my husbands drinking (or so i thought I was), until we discovered our son also has a problem. Emotionally and Mentally I am exhausted, feeling very chaotic and out of control, I am definitely sicker than the alcoholics...right now. Spiritually I am void at this moment trying to find some peace and serenity. Physically I have been trying to go to the gym and going for walks with a girlfriend...this has helped some.
I haven't gone to a meeting yet and am looking at both al anon and CODA. I thought I might try reaching out here first, and already feel a small release of pressure by simply typing this out. Thank God for online sites like this!!
I have read many posts and thank you to everyone who has shared, you have ignited the need in me to get help for myself and also the hope that life can eventually get better!
Reaching out is a good start. You really do know what you have to do. You have been down this road before. You have worked the program before and found enough relief that you were able to get along for 5 years before another situation brought you back. Find a meeting in your area. Find your old friends from AlAnon. Keep reading and posting on this site.
I too have a AS and it has been pure hell with him. But there is hope. You can take care of you and let your son have his disease back. You didn't cause it, you can't control it and you can't cure it so the next best thing is to get to Al-anon and start recovery for you.
My son is now in jail and I pray with forced sobriety he will finally get it and do something, if not I will continue on with my life. It took a long time for me to admit I had a problem too but not I see with HP's help.
MIP and the best place to come when your down, need a hand and some ESH..... you are not alone so keep coming back
(((( hugs ))))
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Your not alone SB.. I too have an addict son working on his recovery. I think we all live in there chaotic life's all due to there choices. We love them and hate to see this disease kill them. There is hope. My son at 21 now 22 hit his bottom. Real ugly bad and he did not have any hope. Seeing him homeless and drugging sent me to a very ugly place. I could not handle it. My pain for him that is. But some how he came back. Had his mini relapse after 35 days clean but he didn't fall as hard as the last time. Your not alone. I pray our children find there way to recovery. As you read your not alone and we keep each other in prayer and our loved ones.. At one time I had to bury my son in my heart so I could have at least 5 minutes of peace. I know crazy huh, but I knew no other way to get through just the moment. We get lost with them probably even worse.. Keep reaching out. Prayers..
