Well got paid Wed. so did a couple errands, got meds. Then took myself to get Chinese food, sit, read, be warm and do paperwork. I asked for in the back quiet...

THEN they sat this grama and grampa down with two girl grandkids behind me. I am jumbled, they were loud. Grampa kept talking about a squirrel in the road running back and forth,"did you see it!?" He would say.Then he says,"oh it got squashed!"  I realized he was lieing to them. In my psychosis....lol I wanted to ask him,"What is making you LIE to that child???" Plus, "lookit I am trying to eat this beautiful meal in peace, you are talking about a squirrel being hurt and killed!" BUT instead I asked the waitress to move me. Probably a better idea right?

I ordered $70 of food for a week and a half so I would eat right.

Anyway as I am now happy, reading my book eating, my tooth screams like a banshee. omgawd! I try to eat. no go, so this wonderful waitress, gives me two ibuprophen, I am not suppose to take nsaids...bad reactions...they did nothing anyway, so instead of barfing in the restaurant I leave, get to my truck.. my neighbor/friend/tenants calls, "YOUR DOGS ARE ALL IN THE ROAD!!!!" dang it, I am honestly so sick, was heading for er. but had to go to walmart to get feed as apparently Augie my pet farm pig busted into the house causing chaos letting dogs out.

I was going to just go home and give Augie some human food as I hurt that bad. but when he does this, this means I am sooo hungry I will do anything mood. so big sigh, I stop get feed and some food, then stop and get my friends some ice cream and cake for helping me. they were getting dogs in, one was trying to bite her, I could hear them going nuts. she says ok duncan, her cute 9 year old, found wurdle, guinea pig doozie and my skinny pig girls. cannot find bunny or Henry my sulatta who is about as big as half a soccer ball now...

I cry more. They don't know where Augs is...omgawd.... so she calls again, they found Henry. They said your house is trashed. I said, "As long as my babies are ok I don't care if it burns down.." mean it too. would just mean lots more thrift shopping for cool stuff..

anyway I get home, they run out with Henry and Wurdle. Henry had peed down the front of her sweatshirt....lol I was crying sick, ugh, she hugged and  held me, was sooo nice. i have not felt taken care of for YEARS. She hands me Henry. His little toes and everything still perfect. He and wurdle are all out of their shells very tame and wanting to eat....I would say they were hapy to see me but.. Henry did allow me to keep kissing his head though!

Well they have not seen my house, and the mess the ex tenants did. So lots was just that, but Augie had pulled down the enclosure 9' by 28" that tort turt bun, skinny pig girls and guinea pig live in....hay food stuff alllll over living room no big deal.

then i saw the grate was not over the heater vent..omgawd Harrybuns went down there! Then the dogs took off down the hall...Harry musta heard me and came out, got him from under the bed...whew. Well back door Augie pushed open was open. where is augs??? I go down the hall to get into bed. ALL my bedding, a huge feather/down bed, sheets down comforters, down pillows, AND part of my curtain a fifty dollar hanging....and Augie asleep on top with the sheer shiney sparkly sash over  his nose....lol Nothing rooted  up either. wish I had a picture. i was too s ick.

Soooo he got up and ate, went to his room in the barn.

ughhhhh. I took a ton of stuff for everything. omega 3 B complex, C D half the effexor does I was to start with to see if that will work, some other med for dizzy and nausea instead of phenergan. took a methadone. I rarely takem.gave myself an injection of B-12. took off my jeans got on my bed dogs piled on and sam cat I was gone. zzzzzzzzz

morn, no more windstorm, but weak and light headache. sitting very still. Nothing catastorous happened. 24 eggs today!!!

Had to go rescue Lucille my goose. Cudy my little white wirey haird dog, chases her. makes me nuts, I cannot catch him to teach him. i will have to put Lucille in a cage and walk cudy around her, you tell him no if he even looks at her. she is NOT his problem says alpha me. so we do this, then when he does not have any interest you put her in a larger area enclosed, again ya walk cudy around. then someone holds her do the same thing. I can tell when they get it. ya see if the alpha does not care about something, the submissives won't either. So then hopefully wiht dog still on leash, let dog out on a cotton rope, twenty feet or so and see if they chase. usually they don't. but terriers are critter chasers by nature. go in a hole chase out prey...but his havanese side is all about his person, alllll about  being where they are and always minding them.

telling you this in case it could help you. works for anything. vacumm cleaners, people at the door, chasing cats, chickens neighbors brat children....hehe.

I Hate nausea.

so Lucille was the biggest thing and going up an 8 foot ladder to gather eggs...

filling bird feeders went well too. slow and ez. but woke at two am. here I am. hurts horrible need to go to er but do not want pain med.  Iwant it pulled out but I know they won't so why bother,, so will go to my flushing and take meds....rrrrr

I keep thinking about my xah. I don't know why. We still cannot find him. I don't usually think about him at all.

thank you for the well wishes, meant a lot. a whole lot. John I like the stick around so you can see how sick you were. been there when I said bye to my ah. my first ah ha was his disease made me forget to do my eyebrows!!! can you believe it, I did not see my own eyebrows~

My doc will track me down if I don't check in. He is a  hoot. shoulda seen him when I told him what augie did, my pet farm pig busted in my house and ate a bunch of my pills~ he says well he sure is not depressed.....and about fell off his stool~! he tells me stuff I keep confidentail. work stuff. I am not kidding, be responsible for your own health. the admin are idiots.

anyway he goes out the door into the hall laughing saying," pig ate my pills, hahahahaha!!!!!" so much for confidentiality...haha

ok gotta go doctor myself.....sigh

oh pinkchip, this guy is honestly a very good friend. He would have no interest in me, I told him he is my guinea pig to help me not to isolate cuz of men would pursue me. He is only 37 I am 61.

the jw friend/dating thing I will just chat, email. I know what red flags are...

ah rain and frongs in the air, nuthing better!