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I'm having a rough day today. I have been an active Al-Anon member both here and in the f2f rooms for a long time, but this morning I felt like a total newcomer. I'm crabby, irritable, and critical of those around me. I feel like the ground is shifting under my feet and I don't know why. My AH has been sober for 6 years and is doing good, too, so it's not like I am living with the active disease, but I feel like the ground is shifting under my feet lately. I'm not sure why. It's a little scary in a way because it feels a lot like before my AH got sober, but I don't think that's an issue this time. I think it's just a slip on my part. I think I need more Al-Anon. I know my behavior lately is making my AH uneasy, too. I don't blame him. LOL

I'm having a really hard time not taking my AH's inventory and letting go of things that usually don't bother me much.

I have had a lot of personal growth lately and I don't know if that has anything to do with this particular feeling of being off balance.

 



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Hi, Jen: In some ways, I think your crabbiness might be a gift. Helps keep you from getting complacent which is so easy when things are going well. I also wonder if you're on your own back about something and projecting it onto your spouse?  There are days I'm just crabby.  Step 10 helps with that. 



-- Edited by grateful2be on Thursday 27th of March 2014 09:33:39 PM

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Jen


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Thanks Grateful. Yes, It could be that. I'm just not sure. Could be overwhelm, lots of stuff going on right now and money is tight this time of year.

I'm just trying to be with this feeling, letting it flow. There is most likely a lesson in there that I am just not getting yet, but it will come to me if I just don't fight it.

I have been doing some pretty intense emotional and spiritual work with myself the last few months. That may be why I feel like the ground is shifting under me. I am hatching a new me and it is strange and scary and exciting, but also exhausting. Trying to do lots of self care right now, which is always a challenge when there are kids and homeschooling and home business involved. LOL But, tomorrow is a new day and tonight I am going to go to bed and get some rest. That always helps.

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Jen, I have been experiencing a lot of soul shifting for lack of a better term. It has made the last 4 weeks extremely frustrating emotionally, mentally and spiritually even. I don't know if it's the lent season or what. Just kind of ehe .. hugs :)

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I do comparisons at times like this and review what it was like before program and my attitude changes very very quickly.  "Hold it up to the light of the Serenity Prayer"  was one thing I was taught in early recovery.  That one works great!!   ((((hugs))))) smile



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Breakthroughs often come after breakdowns....this give me comfort when I am in a crabby, gnarly place.  Sometimes I really do enjoy those gnarly places, as I get my housework done.  As Teresa of Avila might say, "time to go in the kitchen and peel potatoes".  And I do love mashed potatoes.smile



-- Edited by PP on Friday 28th of March 2014 07:54:23 AM

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Jen: As you have been there for me, I am always here for you. I didn't see your post until today so I am almost positive you are feeling better. I have been noticing the growth in you a lot lately. I hope I can grow more spiritually as you have. I can see how much you have helped me.

I feel kind of like I have slipped over the years too. You are in the right place. Maybe even in the right place right now. You don't have to let crabbiness or anything else bring you down. You are a work in progress. I feel so connected to you as you know. But, there is anonymity issues here I guess.

Thanks for sharing your frustrations & your triumphs w/ us. It is a joy to have you here on MIP.

Kathleen



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