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Just a little thought that I have been meaning to share here.
Might sound silly.
But there has been a particular actor that I have been obsessed with for over a decade and a half. So recently I re-watched the TV series he is famous for and that I have loved him in for all of these years...and as i watched it, I didn't feel that familiar swoon. Instead I kept thinking "but this character is a complete A-hole! So typically alcoholic! So rude! Sure, he's cute but who cares, he's so selfish and aggressive! What a jerk!!
I thought that was kind of funny and figured, hey, I'm getting better at being a woman and I don't like aggressive alpha male nonsense anymore, that's great!!
But last night, I re-watched the Sherlock Holmes movies (with RDJ and Jude Law) with daughter and I hated Sherlock and wanted to punch him. I mean, the character was in no way funny and in every way an embodiment of the A's in my life and I hated him!! Sherlock!! My childhood hero!! My god, what is happening to my thinking?
-- Edited by Melly1248 on Tuesday 25th of March 2014 10:06:38 AM
Melly, Good work . I too have discovered that recovery is very subtle. I found that my thinking and attitudes had changed without my even noticing until one day, like yourself I responded differently.
It is not silly at all. I remember sitting in an alon meeting one time so excited about what who I was becoming and saying that I looked forward to seeing who I would be a year from then...I love growth; doesn't matter if it is a plant, people, soup, etc.
Ha ha Melly, yup, stuff like this starts to happen - your posts makes me want to start a guessing game - hmmm, which actor? My guess is the one from two and a half men. Won't say his name, but ya'll probably can guess it! I experience guys like that now and just smile politely and walk away.
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All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France