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It seems that things are winding down and not so much .. stbax has been laid off. Well, .. I'm not getting divorced while he's laid off .. lol .. how stupid do I look? Apparently, I have "STUPID" written across my forehead with these atty's and it just blows my mind. I'm thinking that my May timeframe is about right. I sit and wait which is driving everyone else crazy .. lol. Thank you Alanon for giving me the acknowledgement for knowing when to move and when to sit still. Best of all knowing what is best for ME!
I'm being pressured by my atty for financials and he's not answering a very basic question .. is the stbax laid off or not .. and guess what I know definitively that yes he has been laid off. So when I go and talk to my atty I will be able to provide the fact I'm NOT moving forward at this point and that we cool our heels until at least May. After that I'm good .. it does explain why he's been so agreeable .. lol. He's been throwing money a lot of money at the kids and I would like to know his motivation outside of guilt .. no .. I don't trust him and it will be revealed and I have a feeling if it's what I think there goes the contact with the kids big time.
It's very interesting everything I have learned over the past couple of years. Mostly it's been interesting what I've learned about myself. I'm really so much smarter, prettier and just capable than I thought .. I still fall down .. a LOT however at least now it's not so bad when I stumble .. I still have a long ways to go.
Work has been AMAZING!! I can't say how much I love, love, love my job and that this is a God thing in terms of everything I have dealt with in a job this is a reprieve from the garbage and verbal vomit. My co-worker and I were talking about that Friday. I haven't seen her all week and I have missed her a great deal. She's had childcare issues and now that has been all straightened out for her things should get back to our normal. I have really missed her though. We just have the best time together and it is just relaxing to know I'm not dealing with looneytoons. I have at least one person stop by my desk just to say hi and how much they enjoy me being there .. it makes me feel incredibly blessed to say the least.
My STBAX is suppose to be contacting me about visitation and has neglected to do so at this point so THAT will be interesting and I have not made any move nor will I do so. Ohhh ... I have been listening to Zig Ziglar a LOT lately and I really have enjoyed that a great deal. That's what I've been listening to while my co-hart has been out of the office .. lol. I'm sure the guys are like wth is that woman up to now?!
She said the same thing I did .. it's so nice to look forward to work and we giggle, tease and just have a good time in general having fun in the afternoon it flies by. I understand the statement so much better do what you love and the money will come. I do need another job this part time stuff isn't going to work for me.
Anyway .. a lot of stressful stuff coming .. however GREAT stuff coming too and I'm very excited about that fact. It's going to be what it is going to be and I'm ok with that big time.
Hugs to all and hope there is a lot of peace and blessings this weekend and week.
S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
So happy to read how much you love your job, Serenity, and that you are taking care of yourself and the kids in the way things seem right to you. It also makes me happy to see you enjoying your co-workers, too. You've had a long, tough road to travel and it looks to me as if your HP has taken you to a little oasis in the dry desert of working through the legal ramifications of freedom for you. Hugs back, sister.
I know that waiting stuff is hard. I have people asking me what I am waiting for........I don't know but when it happens.....I will know-----so I wait.
I have fun at my work too.....it's like a whole different me. One that doesn't have to think about home and relationship issues----just get the job done and have fun with the people I am with and live in that moment.
Thanks for the share!!!
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You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. (Dr. Suess)
It makes me feel good when I see great posts like this. I'm happy for you. I pray so much everyday for all of us dealing with this disease that we will live and learn to overcome and happiness in our future.
((( hugs )))
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