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Warning flags are popping up. After weeks of massive improvement, I'm afraid that he might be drinking again. Crappy mood, slight slurring of words, 'poor-me' party.
Or, you know, he might just be in a crappy mood and I'm overthinking. Must not listen to the crazy-brain.
Hi, Spider. If he is drinking, there's nothing you can do about it. If he isn't drinking, there's nothing you can do about it. So....you've reached out to share rather than to sink into worry, despair, self-pity, why me's and why can't he's? Good work.
I also agree..."We admitted we were powerless....." "and our lives had become unmanageable as if they were supposed to be until we found out that they didn't have to be at all and then we just kept coming back and we got saner and life got better. Wooooo (((((hugs)))))
I have come to realize my concerns and fears about IF he's drinking or not was getting me nowhere. Just giving me crazy thoughts. I try not to go there anymore. If there is no programs in place and just trying to white knuckle it my son is going to fail and drink again someday.
I'm tired of disappointment
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I'm tired of this whole, 'I don't stand for anything!' What does that even mean?? It's like a mantra or something in his brain - I don't think he knows what it means. Gah!
Anyway, I just have to let it go and do my thing. Hopefully he'll figure out how to self-soothe and do whatever it is that he needs to do. I've just got to keep on keepin' on, as it were. Not my problem.
