The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
While living with my ex ah, I ran from the truth of our life, of my life in many things, books and studying, tv, internet, work, anything that distracted me from thinking things through, from being still and quiet and listening to my own soul. My first year in alanon, I spent my time facing it all, listening and working through it, ive never felt better. Im back running again, in a compulsive way, I cant just be, I wont listen to whats going on inside, I wont spend time facing truths, im sinking back in the darkness again and I feel like somethings stopping me from working on myself. Im slipping fast.
Hugs el-cee. Usually when I feel like this, it's right before I make a significant break-through. The fact that you're aware of what's going on makes me think maybe you are too.
Great awareness LC! I have always heard that if you want to know HOW this program works just look at the words how spells out. Honest, Open, Willing---- I hear and read all of these attitudes in recent your posts as well as in this one today.
Remember the three A's I see the awareness, acceptance and action expressed very well in your message. Ask HP to direct your actions and before you know it you will be going into a deeper more meaningful direction.
There has to be a fine balance between sitting with yourself and pondering your inner truths and then going into action mode and being out there engaged in the world. Too much introspection and sitting with yourself in deep thought is neurotic. Too much busy busy with no time for self is frantic and avoidant. Balance is always the goal.
Finding the balance is the way, and you can start by just that five minutes in the morning, to sit and self reflect and have your conversation with the Universe and then
you can better direct your day.
If you had it once, you will have it again, seek and you shall find...
You are listening or you would not have had this insight. Sometimes the posts don't give me enough information to offer anything helpful. It feels like you are being hard on yourself...maybe it is time to flow along a bit more gently. Time for a good sit, as Bettina suggested, may help. It works for me. I have a restless mind, so I need to just sit and be quiet.
There is a balance between "Let Go And Let God" and "Awareness, Acceptance and Action". Once you get to the Action part you have to decide to listen to what your HP is saying. Use your quiet time for listening time. And then you will know action or no action. If action, then what action.
I want action in my life but I don't know and when in doubt, I don't. So my action is to wait for my HP to let me know. I let go of the problem and know that HP is in charge.
I find you to be very honest and I've seen that from you before. I believe it helps others get honest too.
you've gotten great experience from others in this thread. I especially like what Mellie said. I find that when I'm at a point where I'm ready for a huge step of growth, I have to be depressed first. Otherwise I wouldn't have the willingness to do what I being led to.
