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MY AH HAS VERY SINGLE TYPE OF LIE AND EXCUSE TO GET A DRINK. I COME HOME AND ALL HE WANTS IS MONEY FOR WHAT EVER HE MAKES A LIE FOR AND HE PROMISES ME TO COME HOME SO WE CAN HAVE OUR DATE NIGHT FRIDAY. SO HERE I AM HOME ALONE AND I DONT KNOW IF I CAN DO IT. I FEEL THAT IT TAKING ME DOWN WITH HIS DISEASE. BUT I NEED TO GO BACK TO MY STEP TO SURRENDER AND KEEP MY STEP OF SERENITY... I KNOW I CAN DO IT.
IM A NAVYSEAL WIFE WHO HAS GONE THRU ALOT OF ABUSE BY A ALCOHOLIC I CAN DO THIS FOR ME AND MY HEALTH. I HAVE NOT SLEPT IN ONE WEEK JUST WORRYING ABOUT HIM AND I KNOW I SHOULD NOT AND WORRY ABOUT ME AND MY HEALTH.
Navy seal ..... Thinking of you and I totally understand your feelings.
We are so powerless over this disease. Hang in there and take care of YOU. This disease is cunning,baffling,and powerful. Without help it is to much for us. There is one who has all power.... I'm glad to hear you don't plan to give up on recovery for yourself even if he doesn't choose it for himself. That's thinking and doing the right thing. Way to go....! Keep doing what you're doing to take care of yourself. ((Hugs)) Mary
Friday night is often a meeting night in many areas and was where I got into recovery. We started the weekend off in a meeting because the weekends were usually traumatic and chaotic if we didn't have the fellowship first. Is there a meeting your can get to rather than spending the time in crises? Will keep you in mind and prayers for the next 24 hours...one day at a time. (((((hugs)))))
I hope you can get to some meetings again, or go to some online meetings. Perhaps in addition to meeting you can figure out some things to do while he isn't at home? Go out with some friends? You don't have to sit at home and wait for him, isolation is a bad thing. . The kids give you comfort but not the same as humans.
When my AW is active she would use every trick in the book to get more drink. She is very persuasive, sober or drunk. I just stopped listening after a while. Arguments were never won becaus they were non-stop and only ended when one of us was too exhausted to go on. It just wasn't worth even engaging most of the time when she was active. Doing the first step will get you a long ways toward this. If you aren't able to do meetings right now, or go out, perhaps you can work the first step on the step board. I did it recently and am glad I did.
Keep taking care of yourself and keep coming back!
Kenny
-- Edited by KennyFenderjazz on Saturday 15th of March 2014 11:51:14 PM
I'm so sorry you are struggling. I know you posted this the other day, but I wanted to send you some positive juju anyway! I do hope you have gotten some rest. Whenever I struggle, I always have to go back to step 1: I am powerless: PERIOD. My life is unmanageable:YES, it is. Finding acceptance and working that step every day really helps put me in the right mindset for having a better day in general. HUGS~
