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As much as I have had moments, in my head and heart, to break the No contact with my A son..... I followed my gut.... thought things thru..... and realized what I was missing I have not seen or been around in many years.... my sober son..... the disease has him masked and caped as a hurtful and hurting person and his life is out of control..... all my mama feelings are wanting to 'react', but not responding is still good for now.... my heart breaks for what this disease is doing to him..... but it is no longer in control of me also....I am a recovering A and have my own disease to deal with... I know first hand what he is going thru.... on some level anyway.... and it is so much easier to turn him, his disease and my own insanity over to the care of God, than to have to start the whole cycle again... because now, knowing what i know.... I am responsible for putting myself in the position to watch him self destruct..... this program works when we work it.... as tired as I get of the slogans.... they do make me stop and think..... thanks for letting me share.....
I too is in no contact mode. I will not answer my phone and leave it off most of the time. Turn it on in the middle of the night to get messages which thank God my son hasn't left any. I miss my son too and want so bad to have him in my life but I know it's not the time. I will pray that someday it will be the time and our family will be together again.
Yes we have heartbreak knowing what they must be going through but to get involved will only bring us grief in the long run.
All we can do is love them in our hearts and let go and let God...
Take care of you and prayers for you and your son.
My candles are lite every night for all of us and our A's and prayers that peace will come.
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
(((Ladee))) I can relate. Today I actually shut my eyes so that they would not drink the sickness in. Thank you for your powerful share. You sound grounded with good awareness and program. Sending prayers for you and your son.
Awesome share and awareness! I always have to remember hurting people hurt people and to detach with love. Sending you love and support on your journey!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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