The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
After beating myself up and reaching a very personal LOW last week, i stood up, worked hard on forgiving myself. Then I took the advice given here, and taking care of myself. Eating well, enjoying the process of cooking and tasting .
Sleeping well, enjoying the process of relaxing.
Educating my brain, enjoying the process of discovering and learning by reading.
Training my serenity, letting flowing my emotions, each and every one of them, enjoying the process of knowing myself so much better.
Practicing peace, by socializing with healthy positive people, enjoying the process of listening, and whenever possible, walking away from situations and people that are not respecting my boundaries.
Fighting fear, letting myself be drawn to unknown but interesting things i always wanted to learn, like a thai massage course
This is all quite new for me, focusing on my needs and wants persistently, well over the past 2 years i have come to know these tools in Al Anon, but it is only now that they are slowly in the process of being lived, sinking in, in practice..
I quite enjoy that new road. God, have I been bad to myself lately..
CHANGEin the process.
(the A?? well I have to say I was shocked of his personality change since he started drinking again I didn't walk away just like thatit was hard, but quite frankly, since he is showing me his 200 % A-hole side, i had to wonder what kept me so attached to him. I had become sick, really! So now that we are separated, I hope for both of us to have better chances of recovery. I wish him well, from all my heart. may HP save his soul that one is really lovable )
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