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Hiya guys and gals, I am coming off a crazy week of chaos (courtesy my AH).
1. Suicide attempt w/ booze and pills----went to ER
2. released from ER zonked out on meds (sent home in cab and then he drove----crashed his car)
3.DWI
4.released from DWI hold, threatened suicide---went to crisis center
5.sent to psych review and detox
6.detoxing and getting shipped to florida for rehab. (second time)
I went to my f2f meeting last night and I am still in the beginner's meeting, some of the other beginners listened to my story and wondered how I could just sit there, still functioning (somewhat normally LOL) I said.........Well, if I didn't have any Al-Anon in me before this happened I would probably be in the adjoining psych room next to my AH.
I credit this program with allowing me to separate the disease from the man I love. I always tell him that I will love him forever but may not be able to live with him.
I agreed to bring him his suitcase of stuff to go to florida, I will drop it off tonight and that will be the last I see of him for awhile.
This time around I don't have the same kind of hope I did last month, but I do have hope for him. I do know that I am learning each time he tries for recovery, as I hope he is learning as well.
I am continuing w/ my meetings and the kids are getting into Alateen this time around.
For all that has happened in the last 6 days, I am just sitting here, sipping my morning tea and relaxing. I am good.
I wish you all a peaceful day!!!
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You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. (Dr. Suess)
Great work on your part. I look back after having been active in Al Anon for just really a couple months, and am amazed at the changes in me, and my life really isn't very stressful compared to yours at this point, my AW is in active recovery.
Keep up the good work. Your cheerleaders here will stay behind you.
I hope AH has an AH-HA time down in FL. It wasn't until my AWs second stint in rehab that she really got serious. But at any time that could turn into needing a third, so I keep my expectations low and my celebrations - when they are deserved - high.
It is the way it works. Stay calm, check your motives, work the program and take care of you and your children. He will hopefully take care of himself from here on out.
Let go Let God....
(((( hugs ))))
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Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Jilly, good for you, letting all these consequences, natural consequences pile down on him. You did not rush to save and fix, thats some achievement in my book. The first sign of hospitals and I turn into Florence Nightingale, you know, Im here for you!!!!! Im working on it though. Thanks for sharing.x
((Jillybean)) Calm and boring is wonderful sometimes isn't it? Enjoy your quiet cup of tea, you deserve it for sure after the events of this week. He is just where he needs to be for now and is in good hands.
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Nothing has changed but my attitude, everything has changed.
