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I also feel like dancing & singing & being the best me I can be! I am so grateful today. I think I will go home later & blast my satellite radio! I have to relish & cherish the time I have to spend celebrating. One of my friends said we have the permission to be silly! I can do that every day. Sometimes I feel like I was born that way. I have a right to be me all the time. How's that for the obvious? I am always me! I can't be anyone else. I am gonna live each day like there is no tomorrow. I am going to be positive every chance I get. I think I will watch a crazy comedy movie tonight just so I can laugh. I need to feel happy, joyous & free each moment of the day. I have come a long way even since last year. I haven't had a sleepless night in awhile. That is really something to be grateful for. I did have somewhat of a nightmare last night but I can see my subconscious doing things that probably will never happen in my entire lifetime. I don't have to worry. I just have to wake up before the crap hits the fan! I know I ramble...I know I am sometimes totally crazy in my thinking. But, I have the program to straighten me out when I get out of control.
So, for all of you who have read this, you too can celebrate YOU today!
Thanks for the reminder, Kathleen. Silliness is so cool. It's the opposite of dread, kind of like an antidote, and I'm working on letting more of it in.
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
Thank you Tortuga! I had a very challenging day. I was at the dentist to get a new crown when, oh yea, an emergency root canal had to be done. I am very sensitive to epinephrine (heartrate goes through the roof) which makes the anesthetic last longer so it wore off about an hour before he was done. So I was all feeling sorry for self, whinging etc until I heard the lady in the next cubicle being told that she had to have her wisdom teeth and a couple of molars pulled at 72...I could hear her fear in her voice, then a male voice said to her...if you can handle having your leg amputated in two places, you can handle this. WOW, gratitude check! So me and the dental assistant were jamming to the Beatles, Crosby, Stills et al, and Simon & Garfunkel and I danced in the chair and my head while he rotorootered my nerve! I am a fan of silliness, play, and art in a BIG way so bring it on...dance til you drop! God loves silly too, the more the better.
Oh Cwya, I went to the dentist a few days ago and the dental assistant was new. She was so sweet but she kept pulling the hose out too far and spraying my face with water; I had water in my eyes, up my nose and running down my neck. I couldn't help it, I started giggling even though the dentist had the drill in my mouth at the time and the dentist said "What's wrong? Didn't we tell you we were giving out free showers today?"
I've never laughed in the dentists chair before but that sent me into fits!
I am happy that we can still dance yes silliness is an antidote we work so intensely the program, that we forget sometimes to balance with lightness just for today (we sure know there will be other moments too, but just for today, lets put down the luggage and feel light and cheerful and grateful, for when we learn to smile at life, many times, life smiles back at us
sending good vibes out to you, Thanks for being!
