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I used to believe that I needed to be prepared for the worst always. I am learning a new way to prepare myself to be healthy and strong to deal with life's ups and downs instead. Gaining the confidence to maintain sanity through difficult times, and learning to enjoy the smallest of blessings every day. This last storm has taken a peaceful break. I could feel the peacefulness that surrounded me and my kids. My commute home last night I repeatedly listened to Temporary home by Carrie Underwood and cried my eyes out. We will not likely be able to stay where we are and I cried because I hurt for what has passed but I know no matter where we are or where we go, my home is wherever my God and my children are. Acceptance is a powerful tool. I am grateful to have clean water to drink, food to eat and a warm house to sleep in. Family and friends surround us, I have come out of a shell. Squinting my eyes to the light that is out there when we choose to see it. It has taken some time to adjust, I am indeed still a work in progress. I am gratefully humbled by this experience. There were moments where I couldn't understand how or why some ended up in such horrific situations. I get it. Message received loud and clear. It is also not my job to fix anyone else's problems just my own. I hope that I am able to pass on the message of hope to those who are ready to receive. I also pray for continued growth and learning. I pray for A to have a safe journey. I also pray for the strength and courage to withstand the storms ahead. May I remember the calm before the storm, may I remember that this too shall pass in the worst of times. May I remember to cherish the best of times, and share my Experiences, Strengths and Hope to others along the way. We are not alone.
I am so pleased that you have found the Acceptance and Deep Peace that passes understanding. It is evident that you have worked your program with much dedication as your compassion, love and courage rings so true.
Acceptance comes and goes for me. Like one day I think I have a handle on it, and then the next day...not so much, LOL! I love what you shared. Being grateful, truly grateful, can keep you moving towards peace. Again, thank you for sharing and reminding me that some day I can find that peace too.
Preparing for the worst .. love that you shared this .. several years in and still I do it .. still cleaning house I think .. gonna have to reflect on that more ..
love your share .. Funny how we can feel so stuck sometimes only to glance back and see how far we've come .. Even in the above recognition in me, I am not standing still .. I am still moving forward .. Another insight recognized today I did not recognize yesterday .. Keep coming back !! .. I had the awareness too, home is where the nourishment is .. home is where God is ..
Thank you for the wonderful share! I relate and have also come to a place of spending less energy in survival mode of preparing for something that hasn't happened. It felt wrong at first, and at times when I start becoming too focused on "the worst" case scenario, I remind myself to stop, then breathe and pray. I never seem to have enough reminders to create a gratitude list.
Hugs .. I can absolutely relate to what you have said and shared .. I do so much better than I used to do when it comes to trying to hurry answers. It is so ooutside my normal actions to wait and see what God has planned for the kids and I. Hugs - s;)
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