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Hello I'm just checking in I'm hoping to attend a meeting tonight I need some positive energy . My depresstion has lighten up a bit. I took time off of reading Alaon books and just searching for me. I was hoping after 4 months of no insurance and no medication things woukd get better it seams things take a turn the other direction . My house no longer is a battle field . After my A got his year chip he goes to a meeting maybe 3 times a Month but I guess that's ok with him . I'm not one to talk I haven't been faithful to Alaon but I been ill . The house is peaceful that's great but the house is also in so much det that there's no catching up most likely we will lose the house . My A regrets getting sober . He thinks it was the worst thing he did because when he drank we had better luck . But since sober all our life's had changed . The children acted out , I became total depressed and my A took a vacation from work unpaid of course. My A said he can't take anymore bad luck . I here I should not stop drinking and we wild not be in this mess. I said nothing I also been in hell and back I keep my mouth quiet . If he chose to drink I'm not gonna stop him I'm not going to support him . I am not a enabler no more . I don't make choices for no one but my own .the only one will suffer this time around will be my husband . My husband has not supported me at all threw Alaon and my illness or my depresstion because he was taking care of number one himself . He still does not bond with kids and again the swearing and the name calling is back . Since I sleep upstairs in my own room he treats me like a kid . If I'm downstairs to watch tv he say what you want go back to your room and I do not because he says so it's because I want to less crap to deal with . But that's the update .
I missed you. Thanks for the update. Just keep on taking care of yourself . Know that it is progress not perfection and that you are not alone. Prayers for your peace and continued wisdom.
I had to learn to make it if my drinker was drinking or not. My partner has been in AA for nearly five years he has been sober this time for 18 months.
Early sobriety is hard on the whole family this is a family disease, everything did not just get better over night when the drinking stopped in fact it did feel worse sometimes the reality of it all.
However I got totally focused on my recovery, lots of meetings, numbers off members who lived with sober A's, I did my steps that was amazing, I learnt that although my partner was not drinking the ISM's were alive in all of us. It took a long time for the disease to tear my family apart and we are slowly putting it back together thanks to al anon and AA. I can only do my part my partners journey is his.(LIVE AND LET LIVE).
I took my al anon medicine even more and I can see benefits today I found myself with the help of the steps.
I missed you also. Thanks also for the update. Don't stay away from your meetings very long cause we also can relapse and return to old non-working behaviors. Keep coming back. ((((hugs))))
