The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I was in the angry dumps this morning like real angry. I posted read codependent no more and still so angry. I went to a f2f and I say there at first feeling angry at me at AW at everyone in the room for being weak like me. But I sat there very still listening trying to breathe. It was a big meeting about 50 people early 20's to late 80's. I sat there listening to 3min shares and about 6 shares in I started to smile yes I had been there yes I was there yes that anger I have it too. But we are all here. Take what you need leave the rest. It works if you work it. You can choose to feel better. This is not a delusion this is not denial this is you saying yes it all sucks but I don't want to feel this way right now. Nothing else no follow up reasoning no rational plan just an off switch to the pain anger and resentment. I will not poison myself to prove love to AW. I will not. I choose not to. And I can choose. Thank you.
That was my experience, too, in meetings. Just listening can change my attitude, feelings and behaviors. All I have to do is sit there, be there, be open and truly listen to what is being said. Thanks for the update TH. Glad you went to your meeting today.
Great awareness and share. When I fianlly "Saw" and "accepted" that I had CHOICES I was set free to live life onLife's terms. I must admit that many of the choices would not have been my number one pick but it did not matter I had choices and so I breathe again
