Here it goes a pity pot kind of morning (long one) - Al-Anon Family Group

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

Here it goes a pity pot kind of morning (long one)

PP · ~*Service Worker*~

There is nothing wrong with you. You do have a good program...sometimes when I feel this way I will put on some loud music (after my prayers, reflection and listening, of course) and dance, dance, dance like everyone is watching and I don't give a d***. You will be fine and this too shall pass.

el-cee · ~*Service Worker*~

Hi Breaking free, I hate days like this when its all swirling around like that, for me extra time on my hands can trigger negative thinking so can stress. I usually dread holidays because of this. My suggestion is write a gratitude list, I feel these are so powerful, just to put your head into that different frame of mind.
You are doing so good trying really hard to make those improvements in the life of you and your family, and to do it with an A in your life is amazing. Dont lose sight of how well you are doing. It wont always be like this, this will pass and you will be earning good money to support yourself and your kids. Also, I find that when things come to me when I have had to put that extra fight in they mean more. This will all be worth it really soon.x

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

Thanks so much! Both of you have helped me to feel heard and to get my head back into al-anon, I am going to read my 3 daily readers and stop sitting in the ick!

neshema2 · ~*Service Worker*~

Breakingfree, you are FINE w/your program..I see good work...Lots of love for self and others....You enjoy your day and don't freeze on us...temps are crazy today :)

grateful2be · ~*Service Worker*~

Being human is messy business sometimes. The good news to me here, BF, is that you know when you are having a sideways day and you know what to do when you have one. I used to think that recovery meant I'd always be "walking in the light." Now, I know that too much sunshine burns and too much darkness withers. Maybe we need both for balance and to be centered?

SerenityRUS · ~*Service Worker*~

Hugs BF, I get like that I have to HHALT .. especially with the weather. It does pass just make sure you are taking care of you! Hugs s :)

Beatrice · Senior Member

I wonder if any of us ever consider our diets also, If we are consuming too much sugar or gluten, the things we eat effect our brains.

We need to make sure we are getting the proper nutrition and sugar consumption is close to alcoholism. Alcohol is pure sugar.

So I think its important to pay attention to our own sugar consumption and gluten, gluten is a product that is not made for the human body. Most all humans are Gluten sensitive.

Gluten is a protein glue that holds food together. Its in all wheat breads and wheat products.

Just a thought.

PP · ~*Service Worker*~

In total agreement with you Bettina....

likemyheart · ~*Service Worker*~

Over the holidays I had too much time on my hands because school was out - I found myself sliding into that kind of thinking but I got out of it by working on a couple of somethings I wanted to get done for a long time but had put off. I have several put-off projects I could work on, but don't, so when I get antsy I try to go there. If I stay busy, the antsy's stay away, I suspect the antsy's roots are in not being as far forward as some part of me thinks I should be so I get antsy if I am not busy at SOMETHING to keep them away. Being busy proves to my "self" that I am doing everything I can to "get there". I also get the added benefit of knowing I got the project done, which feels good to cross it off my never ending list.

Melly1248 · ~*Service Worker*~

Something in the air? I have been miserable, reactive, and full of self pity for the past 24 hours for no clear reason and bitching about everythig, im sick of the sound of my own moaning lol. And I dont tiuch gluten or sugary anythings sorry paula and bettina. So im gonna blame the planets, when in doubt blame the planets lol
Hope u feel better soon bf.

Melly1248 · ~*Service Worker*~

Typing from train so cant see what im typing sorry 4 mistakes

Debilyn · ~*Service Worker*~

When those things come up honey, it means you have more healing to do. And that is what you do by working thru it. or living thru it. I know all too well what you mean. I go thru that stuff about my whole family being gone and sometimes it hits me so hard, I dream about them I think maybe Mother will come by today..ugh.

then I get thru it and it does not come and hit me for a long time again.

Going back to college is hard!!! Besides all the school stuff, you are a mom, with kids and home and bills and and and....it isn't like school is all you are trying to do!

You are doing fine. failed one class, makes me wonder how come the proffessor failed YOU. Something was wrong that you were not getting the info like you needed. Maybe you need to be taught it differently.I mean you are upset you failed then know you have to take it again. That is stressful in itself!! Maybe decide how you would learn it best.

I am so sad that past stuff happened to you. I can tell you I am sooo impressed how you have grown up into such a wonderful lady!

you pour it out on us here. We do understand.

Plus your ah has your daughter right? You were brave to give it a chance. Of course you are leery!

I have faith in you! Don't forget to let it all go sometimes, watch a movie in your jammies and eat popcorn. do some calgon take me awayyyyyys. Wait you may be too young to know that commercial? lol

Sending you oodles of love, debilyn

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

Thanks everyone, once I got into my reading and to the gym which I was amazed it was open in temperatures under negative 20 degrees. But I feel better and thanks for the love and support!

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