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Exactly 3 years ago today the largest crisis in my life came to a disasterous head. A horrible incident occured that I dont even feel the need to go into. That is actually the point of my post. It did pop into my mind a couple of times over this holiday period but!!!! Did I feel the need to relive it, discuss it, go over it, feel it again? No, I really didnt, ive been thinking about what this means, it could be that some time has passed so of course I would be feeling better or it could mean that I have been shedding some parts of myself, like the need to search out sympathy or attention, the need to wallow in self pity, the need to keep it alive so that I have an excuse to check out of life. I am getting better, these holidays were less fearful, less dramatic, more joyful, happier, calmer. I know I have still got a long way to go, im still a part time enabler, im half way there in my recovery. I dont want to become complacent but even if I do, life will soon kick me into size again anyway. Thanks for listening.x
Hey el-cee all we can do is hope for progress and with commitment to ourselves and our programs we can....
yea, I am gonna have slips, I have my issues, some i will never completely recover from, but my goal is to take as good a care of me as i can and do all i can to make my life lighter, less burdened...so when my time comes and i go over the great divide, I won't need a an allied 26' truck to carry my stuff home, but rather a small market buggie.....I think thats all HP expects....us doing our best for ourselves and sharing that self love in service to all other creatures
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(((el-cee))) It feels so good to be freed up from those painful experiences...I love it. Yay, for you!!! And thank you for giving your time here so generously.
That is such a lovely realisation el-fee.
I have a long suffering girlfriend who has listened to lots of my complaints and wtf conversations. One day we were talking about this and that and my friend said 'its ok if you want to talk through some things.' I said 'you know what, I would prefer to hear your news'. We had a good laugh as we cheered the change and gave each other a hug! So I'm sending you ((((((hugs))))))) and a big smile.
To me, remembering something without it triggering an emotional crisis is evidence of healing. Hope that is true for you, el cee. BTW: I love your use of the word wee. It always feels so sweet to me. It's a very good word. Thank you for using it. (((el cee)))
(((el-cee))) It feels so good to be freed up from those painful experiences...I love it. Yay, for you!!! And thank you for giving your time here so generously.
Oh I agree with Paula, here....thanks so much el-cee.....
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