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I don't know how A Person Can Cram so Many Blessings & Nightmares into the Same Week, But I Have Managed it! The Disease of Addiction ALWAYS seems to Hit in my Family! It is An Endless Cycle that just Keeps on Coming!
My Grandchildren are Heartbroken, and THEY had to lay witness to the Nightmare of their Parents Break up! BOTH... Addicts of Course! "One Alcohol & Pills, the Other Alcohol! (Which don't get me Wrong! In the Long run will most Likely Be a Blessing!) However, at 8-10 yrs old, They should not of seen thier parents Sluggin it Out, Cops involved, Protective Orders Served, Name Calling, Nasty Belittling!!!
My Granddaughter Weeping in my Lap telling me at 8 she Jumped on her Daddy's Back and was slappin him in the head telling him to stop Choking her Mommy! And She Loves her Daddy, but is Now Affraid Daddy is Mad at her & She will Never see him again...
My Grandson at 10 tells me "I don't know How "I" am going to put meat on the Freezer Now that Daddy's Gone!" (He hunted with his Daddy all the time!) And he Has to be the Man of the House, and He is just Devistated of What He is Going to do!
Just SO Much for them and at this time of Year! Both Parents are So Bitter they Can't see past their Own Emotions, Ignorance & Hatred to Even Be Sivil with each other even in the littlest of Moments and They Sure can't see the Pain in these kids Faces thats Very Easily see! I had them Over night the Night this All happened, Along with (8) More Kids, and they would have SOME, Happy Very Brief Moments, but it wasn't hard to see that they were struggling! My Grandson Tossed & Turned all night, I Slept on the Couch Next to him just Praying He Could get Some Peaceful Rest...
I Sat them Down seperately before they went home the next day & Resured them that Grandma is Only a Call & 10minutes away, and if they are ever feeling Sad, or Lonely or Just Wanted to Talk or Get out of the house to Please Call me! GOD I Hope they Do!
So For Now, 3 days before My Favorite Holiday & My Birthday... I Sit In Mouring for My Grandchildren, and All I Can do Is PRAY, that HP Uses this to Make them BETTER People, insted of the Ladder option! I Just Feel Helpless & Heartbroken! AGAIN... I AM POWERLESS OVER ADDICTION, Wether Mine Or Thiers it is Just as Real!
Please Say a Prayer For My Grandchildren, that we Find away to Make this Holiday Extra Special, and they See the Love we have in our Hearts for them! I Just Don't Know what to Say... And have Done Nothing but Cry since Saturday! I Hate Seeing thier Pain... A Pain that I too Know so Well, & Have Lived with my Own Parents at the Age of 9 when my Dad Was Choking the Life out of My Mom! It has Brought back So Many Painful Memory's I had Hoped to Bury in the Nightmare of my Childhood's Worst Moments! Yet Here I am! Round 2...
Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays/ & Happy New Years to all...
So hard to deal with. I am so sorry that you and especially your grandchildren are going through this. This has brought tears to my eyes. I remember back before my A son and dil broke up that we spent a Christmas Eve at their house to be able to get up with the little ones in the morning. Well the A got drunk out of his mind at the celebration on Christmas Eve and could not even wake up on Christmas morning. The kids were young enough then to not pay any attention to it but I was devastated and could not even stay. I could not wait to get out of that house so I could let loose with the tears. To this day I know my son has a hard time forgiving himself for that Christmas morning that he missed with his daughters. My dil got the kids ready and took them out of their house and to her mom and dad's for the day. A son woke up to an empty house where Christmas morning had already been celebrated. It was sad all the way around. I didn't have the compassion then that I have today for him that morning. I am so grateful that you are there for your grandchildren and that you have so much knowledge about the disease. They need you so much now. Also, I will say a prayer for their parents and I hope you will find some compassion in your heart for their sickness. I truly believe that there is not a person on this earth that is not sick that would put their children through this. I have forgiven my father many years ago. I realize now what he was going through and the guilt he felt for doing this to his family.
((((hugs)))) to all of you and hopefully you can get through this holiday with some serenity
I am so very sorry that this dreadful disease has surfaced once again. Your GrandChrildren are fortunate that they have you in their lives because of the wisdom, courage and serenity y that you can/ will bring to them. Remember that you are powerless but not helpless
I pray for you and your family.
Please remember to take care of you.
Enjoy your birthday and your favorite time of year
I know when you come here and post that you are in strife, it is got to be even worse then I am reading......I am soo soo sorry that this stinking addiction keeps trickling down the families, hey??? parents, grandparents, and so on.......my mother was the A in my bio string........out of her now 5 suriving kids, THREE are A's......all three of the males......
I was a problem drinker, but thank God, it was only the symptom of my deeper codep. pain and when i got into recovery, I don't even care if i ever touch the stuff again......but i am addict personality with the chocolate, certain chocolates and i can't stop......but i work my program, same as you and we stay "upright" just so sad the others we know aren't in any program...
be strong my girl...work your program like I know you do and just give those lil kids a BIG hug from you and from me
and you know how to find me if ya need to talk..............hugs and love and support
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
There is one place right now where they can be heard, loved and safe. It might not seem like enough, but it is because it has been provided by your HP and theirs. Many prayers for all of you.
I know your memories have returned of your own childhood. See them, feel them, bless the learning you received because of them, and let them go. You are here. You survived. You are thriving. And now, you are there to help your grandchildren through the trauma of their young lives. Blessings, Jozie.
