HI i am new here.  I am having some trouble keeping the focus on myself and hope to get some insight.  I work at a job that has a union.  Recently i was working with the president of my local.   He asked me to do some work with him and I was paid.  My problem is that the way he works with me feels very uncomfortable.  I have worked hard on a certain project and tried to reach him to connect on some of the details.  He has ignored my very clear email, asking if I was still involved, and two phone calls.  I feel strange.  He has told me that he is in a.a. but doesn't go to meetings or have a sponsor.  Something about the dynamic with him reminds me of my father and other people with drinking issues that I have been close with.  The most difficult part is that I am feeling very disappointed that it has gone this way.  I enjoy doing union work and was really liking the feeling of belonging.  I have been in alanon for three years and I can see that my thinking is becoming unmanageable.  I am on step one with this situation.  It is painful and it is bringing up feelings of low self worth. My job is very stressful and the work conditions are horrible.  Working with this person was giving me hope.  In a way I just want to walk away and keep focusing on my recovery.  Every time i work with him i come away feeling a little bit anxious.  There is something toxic about the whole thing.  I think I might also be wanting his approval.  Yuck.  This is so awkward.  Please help me stay on the path of recovery and focus on myself.  I am a single mother with two wonderful children and a good life thanks to alanon.  this feels like it could throw me back.