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(Any references I make that seem offensive in terms of God or He .. .. this is the God of MY understanding, please feel free to insert the God of YOUR understanding into those statements as a whole I think they are universally true.)
First off, big hugs to everyone who is struggling this holiday for whatever reason it is .. life is hard sometimes and compound that with the season that brings out the fun in family dysfunction it can really get wild. I've had to hold fast to gratitude and it's not always easy. I am blessed and there is a saying that keeps popping up on Face Book and pretty much I took it as If you want to look and see a miracle right now .. look in the mirror because you have forgotten you are one. That is so incredibly true. Regardless of the challenges anyone is facing HP is good ALL of the time and God is everything or God is nothing .. for me .. God is really everything and I got more than a few humbling reminders recently as to why. Just thinking that coming into life is painful and death is also painful .. how do I think in the middle is going to be a cake walk? God left out the Life is Fair clause out of my contract. Everyday is really a miracle and a blessing even when it's raining, gloomy and icky .. those are the days that make me appreciate the sunshine all the more.
Update .. LOL .. well .. attorney #3 meeting with today. I got some interesting information yesterday so we'll see what happens in the next couple of weeks. Holding on to God at the moment. He hasn't let me down .. I let myself down .. lol .. that's only because I'm just hard headed and my will is always better .. NOT! Atty #2 is moving at the beginning of the year and at least explains her behavior. So really I'm just trying to figure out what I want to do and how I want to do it.
Of course I'm nervous I just got another 2k bill and I would like to know what in the hell this woman did for me? No court, no letters .. WTH!? Stating that I'm debating this issue considering the THOUSANDS of dollars I have spent ... yes we are doing a FULL audit .. she's so NOT going to be pleased. NOT my issue and I feel like I need to take a stand.
I have been feeling pretty down and just defeated for lack of a better term and then Monday happened .. I'm back on my game. I'm grateful for whatever it was that kicked me in the pants I'm back on a roll. I find it's usually the questions I'm asking aren't the right ones .. I found the right ones to ask. Information is always power .. I believe that without question. I've received the information that I need to move forward and it's just not going to be pretty for all parties concerned .. that part of the deal is not my issue.
The kindness of others is mind blowing and I wish that I could express how humbling that is to be a part of that kind of gift. If I can learn how to humbly accept kindness that will be the trick. That was God who spoke to me and touched our lives. Always what I need, never what I think I need that the blessing is bigger than I can imagine. God is funny that way, in all ways His way is always better than my plan/s.
My temp agency called last night and the crazy lady I had to work with is having some hard consequences to deal with .. it was a very ironic conversation. Same woman who got me fired, same woman who called me and wanted to get my job back and the same woman who then wanted to have coffee with me .. LMAO ... umm .. thank you NO! Apparently they miss me .. LOL .. go figure on that one. My phone rang this is literally how I answered it .. ummm .. you can't afford me to come back and work with looney toons .. the hazard pay I would require would have to cover therapy .. my temp gal started laughing saying umm .. you are really scary. Turns out the office manager is perplexed how I was able to work with this person and not have to constantly be in contact with her. My manager just said .. she has a gift and is able to know what is what about people, young people just don't have that kind of experience. Well, we had a long interesting conversation and I am GRATEFUL that I finally got to tell her how bad it was in the office and how there were times I felt awful for employees, customers, sales people who called in, and the people coming in to fill out job applications .. it was just toxic. It's not like I don't have enough conflict and crazy in my life I don't need to hook another crazy up to my train .. the train is full! So I made the decision to do the best I could just because it was a temp job and I had an end date. I was pretty clear the money was def to low to put up with that kind of abuse on a daily basis. The negativity was just drowning. It was nice validation that .. nope it wasn't me and someone else is now calling her out where I would have just looked like the bitter ex employee. LOL .. hmm .. what is the lesson here?
Anyway, .. God is everything or God is nothing .. and God truly is everything.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
I wanted to respond before I headed out the door. First, you are a gift to this board. I love your sense of humor and the attitude of "I am not taking anymore s*** from anyone because I have self worth". It is valuable for all of us to see boundaries in action, whether we are new or not, sustaining what works for us is not easy! Thank you for the share and the update
Isn't it awesome that God keeps trusting us enough to teach us new lessons? Sounds like you're doing well despite all the drama and chaos. Love your shares. as always! Hang in there, you may be in the dark tunnel but the light is just around the bend!
... and then Monday happened .. I'm back on my game. I'm grateful for whatever it was that kicked me in the pants I'm back on a roll. I find it's usually the questions I'm asking aren't the right ones .. I found the right ones to ask. Information is always power .. I believe that without question. I've received the information that I need to move forward and it's just not going to be pretty for all parties concerned .. that part of the deal is not my issue.
You continue to work your program so well. Thanks for this share today
There is a LOT more to tell and more update.. I will have to see if I can get to a real computer. The phone app just isn't the same starting new topics. Hugs
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
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.. this is the God of MY understanding, please feel free to insert the God of YOUR understanding into those statements as a whole I think they are universally true.)
So I made the decision to do the best I could just because it was a temp job and I had an end date. I was pretty clear the money was def to low to put up with that kind of abuse on a daily basis. The negativity was just drowning. It was nice validation that .. nope it wasn't me and someone else is now calling her out where I would have just looked like the bitter ex employee. LOL .. hmm .. what is the lesson here?
