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I feel pretty good but I don't know where God wants me.
i mean, I kind of do but I kind of really don't know at all.
I'm an Adult Child, Alanon AND an Alcoholic. I fit in everywhere but nowhere. It's weird.
one thing I am experiencing is that I am at Step 1 in Alanon. I've been realizing more and more this week that NOT feeling I need to control the AA's malarky is a REALLY freeing feeling.
SERENITY.
i need the Big Book of AA and the spiritual work I do in it daily but I ALSO am depressed from having the guts sucked out of me by sober A's in AA. It's NOT all members but it's a lot of members. I know they're sick like me but by golly gee - life doesn't have to suck this bad.
so hi-ho, hi-ho, it's off to Alanon I go - and that's all I know For today.
-- Edited by WorkingThroughIt on Saturday 14th of December 2013 05:27:39 PM
A good share- a good chance to pause for reflection... long time Alanoner... gave up hard drinking when i was 17, but most likely i would qualify for the rooms across the passage. ACA too of course... for me this is getting the counselling and therapy I so desperately needed in my youth. By this I mean the time I spend around other ACA's is really healing.
I always think, and believe that serenity, emotional sobriety and ACA maturity is exactly the same thing... at assemblies now I find myself hanging our more with the guys, most of whom are in AA- I see no distinction...
...sometimes I do see myself as a groupaholic- heavily addicted to 12 step groups... but it is a healthy obsession... well, it aint caused me no harm so far...
...but as I get older I see far more similarities, and far fewer differences...
like you I am having to detach from some people from within the rooms... I am glad I had that shangri la when I thought we were going to get better straight away.
So I think I know enough 'to stick with the winners'... I do think you are one of these... birds of a feather stick together...
sometimes God will speak through others... sometimes God is shouting but we are not listening...
Sis...knowing what God wants you to do is more about listening...with your ears and your eyes (my esh)...than knocking repeatedly on God's door trying to get God's attention. There's times for me to learn and there's times for me to practice what I learn and there are times for me to just sit in the palms of God and relax and just smile. Sit...listen...learn...practice. ((((hugs))))
DavidG.