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Hi everyone....I am asking for some positive thoughts/prayers to be sent my way because I can't stop beating myself up. I am harder on myself than anyone else in my life. I am especially being hard on myself because I am very vulnerable right now as I go through a break up and an old qualifier is trying to weasel his way back in my life. I don't want him part of my life and he can't be unless I take the bait...I have to keep reminding myself of this. I trusted him at one point of my life with my heart and my body....which I am now paying for. He tried to contact me on Monday using this against me.....I chose not to respond because that is what he wanted. If I continue to keep him out of my life, he has no reason to keep trying.
Asking for prayers to help me through this difficult time and to stop the obsessing and panic
(((Corgi))) Positive prayers and thoughts coming your way. I've gone through experiences as you are describing, too. Meetings and reading from ODAT, Courage to Change, and Hope for Today always helps me. Going to movies, taking walks, visiting friends or just going to the store to shop for milk and bread has often been a help for me, too. You are being kind to yourself by reaching out. Reciting the Serenity Prayer can often help to break the thought pattern once it gets a hold of us because we can generally focus only on one thought at a time. One word of the prayer at a time can be helpful for some of us. It might be a help to you?
Sending up prayers for you tonight! If you can find some quiet time tonight to just sit and be with God (or your HP of your choosing) please do so. Ask for guidance and peace and I will pray for these things for you!
I can also relate to so much of what you wrote. I agree w Jerry to remember that complete sentence "no" and I would add "you don't have to attend every argument you are invited to"
Both and so much else are difficult when you have a history (especially a codependent one?!) with someone. Your strength is coming through in your words! You are not alone.
