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Hi, I think after four conversations where A ranted and raved at me we are broken up. I think I am okay, his last words were I want to make.sure we have this crystal clear, f you.
So I am going back to sleep, nothing I can do right now I hung up on him several times, but just need some warm hugs. Sorry I know that others are also in a bad place I just need a hug. Just ranting and raving about how awful I am ugh, I know its just words.
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Sleep tight MM and know, just know, that you are special and good.
When I have a night like this I try to decide on something nice to do first thing in the morning, just for me. Wishing you lovely scents in the bathtub, a walk in the path, whatever you want.. just for you
Awe thank you. I am okay, just tired of being a punching bag. And I know if nothing changes nothing changes. I know I am not the source of all As problems, its just convenient to place blame and he is drunk. Sigh. Thank you for the compassion, this is something you can't really even explain to most people because its so insane. At least I hung up few months ago I would have been sobbing and thinking it was all me. Crazy drunk man is just that, crazy and drunk and tomorrow it will be oh I love you he probably won't even remember...
Hugs to you mm; many of us have had those nights, you are not alone. I hope your day gets off to a fresh start for yourself and know we are all here with you.
Hi mm
I understand. Sending you warm thoughts. It's good that you recognize the ranting is not really about you. It is the ugly beast of a disease. Hope you sleep well and spend time taking care of you. Hugs
a big tight hug in your direction....and doing so, you will do me good at the same time...Hugging is the best.
you are loved... and i fully understand where you are at right now.
Take good care of you and breathe!thanks for being here
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MM: That fu stuff shows absolutely NO thought, no creativity, no real meaning, no literary genius, no NOTHING. Those words are hooking words only. I've learned to stand back from all that putting words together that really have no meaning and feel bored with it all. When things are overused, they lose any power to move anybody in anyway. If I apply the question IS IT TRUE? to the words "FU" - the resulting answer is "If What's True?" The rest of the rants and raving words are just as toothless and just as boring as the fu. I help myself by validating myself when words are thrown at me willy nilly. Asking the question "Is it True?" and listening to myself, helps me hear my Higher Self/Health and I can either make a change that I should make or I validate myself with "No, that's not true. I am _________, ________, __________" I've also learned to help myself by removing myself from the disease's language issues. It's opinion of me is none of my business.
You are a woman who is loved unconditionally by a Power greater than this ugly disease. Let your HP soothe you and give you peace. (((MM830)))