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I just got back from my annual well woman visit. The doc found a mass under my right arm, in the armpit area next to my breast. She said it felt fluid filled, which I'm hoping is a good sign that it's not cancer. She wants me to get an ultrasound and a mammogram. I am already frustrated with insurance issues and the imaging center because they wouldn't take the directives the way the doc wrote them. I already can feel my 'worry meter' creeping up and up, LOL! Please pray for me to have peace. I know this is the perfect time in my life to apply my program tools: one day at a time.
ilovedogs: I am w/ you on this one. Nodule in my breast, not to worry. Back in 6 mos. Not to worry. OK one day at a time. Hang in there, sweetie! I know I will. I didn't get the ultrasound. More mammograms. Do what YOU need to do. No advice. Just experience.
Kathleen, the mass wouldn't be seen on a mammogram because it's actually in my armpit.
Betty, I did have the U/S place call the doc's office and I told them both to straighten it out. I let them spar over the directives, I wasn't the one who wrote them, LOL. Everything is 'almost' fixed. I am supposed to call back early tomorrow AM to schedule.
Hey ILD. I've gone through these recurring mix-ups and failures many times and they just plain made me nuts. I too asked the tech how an US or mammo of breast could conceivably find the mass in my armpit and the reply, over and over, was its what the doctor ordered. Now that docs don't actually perform the tests they want us to have there is a breakdown of communication but I kept pushing until I got the test I needed. It is enormously frustrating and crazy making from my experience but I fought to let it go and leave it in HP's hands. Things worked out. Its like looking in someone's mouth and saying "nope your ankle's not broken!" Hang in and if you have to scream and beat your pillow, just go on and do it. For me I usually react to fear by focusing on the anger instead. Through alanon support I gradually learned eventually how to hold still and feel until I could let it go and trust. My prayers aare with you.
I know how worried you must be. We always have so darn many chances to use our tools! For what it's worth, I had a thing like that in much the same position. I can't remember the name of what it turned out to be -- something like a cyst? It was benign and they did an operation under local anesthstic and took it out. Anyway of course I was completely in a state because that state of uncertainty is so horrible. Sending you the very strongest wishes that you get good news about this soon. Hang in there! We're with you.
Been there, just another body part, and I know how scary it is. Try to hang on to the fact that most of these things are not cancerous. I will be praying for you and hoping you get reassuring news along the way and in the end. You know we're here 24/7.
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Cwya, well I know the mass is there because I can feel the dang thing myself!! It's huge and the doctor was surprised that I didn't know it was there. That is how distracted I was, I was so focused on my crappy marriage that I wasn't paying attention to my body. The US will be done specifically under the armpit because this area cannot be seen in a mammogram. The mammogram is actually just my annual test but it may show a connection to the mass under the arm IF they are connected via the lymph system. If it's just a cyst, then the diagnosis will be better and I may just have to get the thing drained.
Now that I know it's there, I swear I can feel it constantly. Thank you all for the kind words and support! I'll keep everyone posted. Most likely they'll get me in for the tests today or tomorrow.