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I can really tell when I've not been working the program as much as I should. The real the gift of alanon is that I can now see what works and what doesn't work In my life. I've been through huge challenges in the past year and with the support and fellowship of the program I've made it through the worst of it. Lately, I've been obsessing again about STBX and I realize......whoa......here goes those symptoms again. Like thinking maybe I should salvage an abusive, miserable marriage and try to save it even though our divorce is soon to be finalized. Really I must be nuts!!!! Time to get to a meeting.
I have also noticed that by practicing gratitude one day at a time, that I get exactly what I need when I need it. In fact mixed in with all the pain are a number of positives that rushed in to fill a painful void. New people I've met, many many old friends I've not seen in years, new exciting opportunities presented right before me. It's honestly almost scary how quickly positive things are put in front of me and I don't think it's just coincidence!!!!! Once again a sign that my HP is making everything alright. It's been pretty amazing, really, If you just can learn to look for the signs that HP is taking care now. Any small positive can gradually turning into big changes.
I am not out of the woods by a long shot.......but I'll keep looking for signs and working the program.
Thank you for your honest share. I agree an altitude of gratitude changed my life as well.. Today's reading in the C2C speaks to this topic. I loved the final quote that states: If the only prayer I say in my lifetime is "Thank You " that would be enough
Glad to hear such good news. I had to laugh at "I must be nutz." I've had those moments, too, for some of the same reasons. Isn't it grand to know that God wants us to thrive not just survive? Gratitude helps us focus on all that is ours to receive and keeps our minds from being focused on concepts that can make us miserable again. Happy day today! You sound sane to me!!!!
Milehi-tic one of the very best lessons I got in the progam was that I wouldn't get to keep it until I gave it away and that really helped me to stay away from slippery places like the compulsion to "go back there". Go get a sponsee if you don't already have one and work with her and others...betcha the longings will slip away. Thanks for this share cause it is an important one for serenity and sanity growth. ((((hugs))))
