The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So I am on steps 4-5 and find this a learning and difficult experience. I shared something I did with my sponsor that I have carried shame and regret for, for over 30 years. I have not admitted it to another human being, only to God. I'm not sure what I expected my sponsor to do-scold me, agree what I did was horrible, perhaps belittle me as was done to me by an abusive brother. Of course she did none of this. She said I'm off to a good start. I'm admitting all my mistakes and flaws and getting positive feedback. Who knew, Lyne
That's one thing I can say that I love about this fellowship this 12 steps of freedom . The right to. Do what's right and be happy . When I realized how much crap I wAs carting around no wonder why I was so tired. When I saw a chance to change and the courage to do so the first thing I did was look apond the shame and guilt and acknowledge and realized I had nothing to be a shamed of because I was the victim here .again I never volunteered for abuse or to enabler I look at it as I was there at the wrong time and place . I let go of the alwful things that happened , I forgave my A for his actions . And I forgave myself for fogetting about me . Today I'm shameless and guilt free and the chance to grow and move on to a happier life .
The freedom! We all carry a lot of stuff around and it is a blessing to know that we can unburden ourselves and that we are loved. Step Four and Five are a challenge but we learn to forgive ourselves, we have all made mistakes in life. I am currently re-visiting these Steps with a new sponsor, I find some things have changed - others perhaps not. Its a journey and one I could never have taken on my own
