The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I shared at a meeting the other day that I had been so angry at myself from not living up to my own standards. Sheesh if I can't live up to my standards how can i think anyone else can.
I went to bed still angry, this is the time I do my Grat list for my day. But this night I did it in a new way for me. Hoping this may be progress . I decided to look way back at my past to see if their was anything there to be grateful for, setting aside the abuse and neglect I endured. It turned out to be one of my best Gratitude list ever I think.
While i endured a lot of hardships, I also enjoyed priceless gifts I have never Thanked my HP (whom I call God) for.
I met amazing people who didn't stay in my life forever but helped shape the person I am. My mother (whom I suspect was bi-polar) would have me pack a bag in a hurry announcing we were going on a trip. I was able to see most of the country that way, learn traditions of other States and culture. When older my mom whisked me off to Greece (her homeland). We stayed for a month, I met relatives I never heard of. I was on board when all my beautiful nieces were born (my siblings much older than me). They were the center of my world for a long time. Years later I returned to Europe with my mother, sister and older niece and did the month long tourist bus thing. I saw historical places that before I'd only seen pictures of. Experienced fully to different cultures. Saw priceless works of art I had only read about. Was in Rome when John Paul was voted in as Pope. Not a practicing any religion at the time but was right there to see history in the making first hand. Of course with the conclave present most of the Vatican was closed to the people, didn't matter to me because i was a little piece of history.
I was thankful for friends made but friendships not meant to last, they all left their mark on me.
I could go on, but I felt so much better after. I realized there is much in my past that was good and wonderful and I wasn't able to see that until the other night.
Wonderful share, thanks so much for letting me peek into your world that's filling up with experience, strength and hope. You are a lovely human being one of my HP's favorites, if he had a refrigerator I know for sure your picture would be on it. You're a blessing and testament to how we can walk past our hurts and find power and love. I'm proud to call you my friend.
. I decided to look way back at my past to see if their was anything there to be grateful for, setting aside the abuse and neglect I endured. It turned out to be one of my best Gratitude list ever I think.
