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So I started my new job today....lots of HR paperwork, I was tired, ran a bit of errands, got home prepared the kids to go trick-or-treating. I was not going to get into costume but in the last minute I did and it felt super fun.
I felt like a happy child again myself....I wore a $6 thrift store mermaid costume, and the kids got a kick out of mom in a glitzy costume. I was finally smiling again in a while.
Well......I ended up losing my Iphone somehow with all the pictures in there.....its out of service since I havn't been able to afford it so it will not ring if I call it..... but was simply using it as a camera.
I had been so elated and this had been one of my happiest days until that happened, and then I let myself slip into an episode of "whoa is me! why is this happening again?" "why me, God?", looked all over for it, never found it and I was sobbing all about ourthis especially because my mom told me "how could you loose your phone again" (I also have attention deficit disorder...trying to mentally heal from what's been a depression, and to top it off I'm depressed because of my dumb attention deficit disorder)....
after a good 10 minute sob session, suddenly I snapped out of it.
People loose phones often......"it happens" and I realized.....how petty am I being? It's about time it happened to me.....Big deal; The world does not revolve around me, let it go.
I guess after working hard and feeling like I've lost a lot of dumb material/financial things because of addiction/alcoholism, or because of moving, or whatever. I might have to file bankruptcy and I wont' be the first or the last... life goes on......
One day I'm leaving this world with nothing but my soul, and I'm worried about a dumb phone?
Anyhow, there are waaaaaaaay more important things to focus on....I guess it was humbling to let a situation that is out of my hands go.
Hi Rose, my favorite holiday, hands down, is Halloween. Because its fun, period. The kids come to the door dressed in various costumes and I play games with them getting them to play along and most of them do and I don't take any pictures, I just have fun. I spend about $40 for candy, give out 2 or more to every kid who comes to my door, carve a lot of pumpkins because I grew them this year, and just enjoy the evening. I love Halloween because kids don't have to do more than dress up as SOMETHING and knock on my door to get candy. They don't hafta be good!
My mom HAS to take pictures of everything, and I hate it. I don't care so much for pictures as I do for the actual fun time I am having and stopping to take pictures instead of enjoying it, well, I'd rather not.
and you are absolutely right - People loose phones often......"it happens" .....Big deal; The world does not revolve around me, let it go.
No sense in letting something that "just happens" ruin your night.
Tonight where I live, the kids have tomorrow off from school, the weather could NOT be better, cool but not windy or rainy, perfect trick or treating weather!
Happy Halloween!
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
Thank you for bringing a smile to my face - I love the mental picture of mermaid mum and her dressed up children arriving on the doorstep.
I'm sorry about your phone - but well done on rising above it and letting it go.
Have a good day
You could lose a phone 1,000 times in a year and still be loveable, valuable and worthwhile! Glad you're enjoying your new job, had fun with your kids, and let go of a critical voice that simply is that - a critical voice. Pay it no mind. (((r)))
"How important is it" That's true
Hot Rod, hadn't even realized I was going by that slogan. My love for my HP is greater than me losing my phone and if losing my phone is what it takes to be happier, so be it :) I'll try to get a picture soon!
Likemyheart...oh it was such genuine fun....I don't remember having this much fun during a holiday in a long time. I was having so much fun that I didn't realize I lost the camera. At least my happiness is slowly coming back.
Definitley progressive Jerry, thank you so much!
Thank you Milkwood and Grateful for your kind support; Genuine Caring People like you guys is why I "keep coming back" <3
